day 23: harry potter

i was planning to write a post about this a long time ago. but i never got the chance to.
ten years ago, when harry potter and the sorcerer's stone first came out, i remember sitting in the theater with my aunt. who knew this whole harry potter business was going to erupt. i'll always remember being in second grade reading the first few books and as the newer books started coming out, i would start reading the series all over again. and then movie after movie, i started watching them and then reading the books even more.
harry potter came into my life when i was about seven. ten years ago. i waited as i turned eleven and waited for my hogwarts letter from dumbledore to come in the mail. it never came. when i grew up, i didn't really broadcast my love for harry potter. as if kids my age ever were connected to it as i was. i don't think it was until high school where i was able to find other kids with a love for harry potter. and after that it just grew bigger and bigger. the franchise exploded and all of a sudden, every other student in school was a harry potter geek.
i haven't read the books one through six in a few years. i'm going to say two years because i remember specifically, i read the books right after another.
and it wasn't until last year in which i bought my first harry potter book. it will be my first harry potter book and it is the last of the series. harry potter and the deathly hallows was by far my favorite book. maybe because there was so much adventure and fighting and love and friendship in it. at times it was slow, especially during the middle, but at the end, it was all worth it.
i got to read about my favorite three wizards fighting evil.
i remember in 9th grade when deathly hallows came out. it was the final installment of the harry potter series. the main question was whether harry potter was going to be killed off or not. i'll try not to spoil it but in a way he was and a way he wasn't.
i saw the london premiere this morning on youtube, along with many, many other harry potter nerds that i knew and that i didn't. my blog dashboard was exploding with posts about the live premiere. not to mention, my posts were exploding too.
it's just hard to imagine that in one week my childhood will be i guess "over". i grew up with harry potter. in this last segment of the movie, harry will be gone with his hogwart years. he's going to be an adult in a sense. seventeen is wizarding legal age. as i'm seventeen, i feel attached.
i might not have gotten my hogwarts letter when i was eleven.
but i feel like i've been there my entire life.
thank you harry potter, for growing up with me.
it's not goodbye. it's never goodbye.

day 22: crackle polish

i thought this morning was going to be the worst day for me. but j made it better. we had an adventure at walmart and even though it was short, it was still fun. just hanging out with him makes my day. i don't know how he does it but he makes everything so care free!
and then after, i had a small pool party at my house. but the sun went away and then things didn't get so fun anymore.
and we went to panera.
and ate
and then j got me crackle polish.
i'm iffy about this right now
but i'll have to see in the morning.
and then we just spent time together.
i played a little wiffle ball with the boys today. it was pretty fun.
and now i'm oovooing into the wee hours of the day.

day 21

today has been another casual day.
i find myself writing less and less as the days go on. i went to work today.
i got called out on at work (with fun) cause i didn't fold my shirt neat enough.
oh wells.
i drove for the first time today. s was sitting in shot gun with b and j in the back. i'm not used to driving. nor pushing down on the pedal. i keep jerking the car back and forth. lol and i kept screaming.
but it was good.
and h called me and told me some stories.
i just hope tomorrow is better.

i hate anon trolls.
especially ones that know your ex
and purposely troll you and get caught.
i will fuck him up.

day 20: july 4th

this was one of the greatest july 4ths i've ever had in my entire life. usually i go and well.. stay home.
i had my first beer.
i know.
just one.
it didn't do anything but
nonetheless, it was something.
and i watched fireworks at j's aunts house.
which were fantastic.
they were right in our faces. but a piece of ash fell in my eye.
and it took me a while to get it out.
it hurt.
then i went around town with j.
and came home now.
one of the best nights of my life.
i haven't laughed so hard in ages.
and i peed in my backyard. (i know classy.. but i had to go without going inside)
i'm glad i have someone there to make me laugh until i can't breathe.
thank you j.
i needed it so much.
now onto the rest of my life.
(:

day 19

today was all about food. from this morning to the night time, all i did was eat and eat and eat. it was like as if i didn't eat before.
i went to uncle bacala's for the first time today for g's graduation slash birthday party. the meals were amazing. i had my first five course italian meal. the whole brunch thing took four hours. everything was delicious. there were waffles and pancakes first. and there was penne a la vodka (which i had for the first time too and it was delicious) and caesar salad, and other things that i forgot cause it was just so much.
and then later that same night i went out to simply fondue with my friends. it was the first time i had fondue. it was really weird but it was good. it was something new and quality time with my friends.

and played billiards. well i didn't. i just tagged people with the white chalk.

and then we saw some fireworks.

i'm tired.
i need le sleep. goodnight.

day 18

i'm sick and tired.
of everything.
and i feel so goddamn lonely.
and i want to scream
but i can't
cause nothing will come out.

went to sra pincay's house for breakfast today. i adore her six year old sun.
got deaded by snr pincay.
cause i told him i was going to be a civil engineer.
that makes me nervous now.
what if i dont find a job after college?
then my dad will be right after all..
and then i'll be screwed for life.
and my dreams will never come true.
and i'll be alone.
forever.
living in a box.
and fucking up things.
i'm so fucking scared.

day 17

i just hate people.
i just fucking hate people.
i can't wait to go to college.

anyway. i saw transformers 3 today. the new female lead was alright. i don't really want to ruin it but she was very.. lets say damsel in distress like. and she had different shoes on during the same scene and i caught it. and it was just. no.
it was an okay day.
another day of cranky-ness.
i just keep getting crankier by the day don't i.
too tired to write.
sra's house tomorrow for flhs breakfast.
last one. ever.