day 16

i guess i woke up on the wrong side of the pillow. i went shopping with my sister and my mom and my godmother in the morning and i was just grumpy. maybe because of my lack of sleep.
but basically.
i got new clothes today.
and i got jamba juice.
and i went to work.
but today wasn't the last day.
and then i went out with s & j and went to s's house to watch some animal planet as we usually do.
too lazy to write as usual.
perhaps i should head off to bed earlier.

day 15

and here i thought for the whole day that my dad was going to pummel me because he caught me sneaking back home last night, today was actually a very decent day.
i woke up and spent a lot of time with my family and i got a lot of things done. i went out to eat and got my photos from graduation and prom and the last day of school.
i accomplished a lot for such a short amount of time.
but however, i feel like as if i haven't seen my friends in the longest times. even though i saw them a few days ago, i'm so used to seeing them at school everyday and having plans every weekend. but now, especially summer is here, the only time i get to see them is on oovoo. which is what i'm doing right now but it's not the same.
i know i said i wasn't going to be like this but, i think i'm slowly turning into the person i don't want to be. i'm slowly giving in, and i know i shouldn't. why i'm turning into this? i don't know. i guess it's after holding myself in for so long, i'm partially exploding.
i don't know.

day 14: rain

i type to you with dripping wet hair and cold skin. and possibly the most thrilling and frightening night. it was an attempt again to sneak out but this time i had a huge caution written in my mind. both my parents were home for once and it was quiet.
nonetheless, the night started humidly and hot. and then lightening and thunder began. usually i'm not scared when sneaking out but knowing that my dad was home made it ten times more frightening for me.
nonetheless i made it home in one piece. and was deaded by my dad from whom i knew from the beginning would catch me especially since he's sleeping in the living room right now.
so nonetheless, it was another fail night. this time, thanks to the rain and thunder. i should have listened. but then, what's life without a little twist and curve?
and ps: no. you do not want to go out in the lightning and thunder.
i don't think your typical romantic kissing in the pouring rain is sexy either.
cause it's fucking wet let me tell you that.
that is all.
-r

day 13

i've never had a more crazy day in my life..
the beginning of the day was excellent, and it wasn't until these last few hours that things just turned around 180 degrees.
i've had the most lovely time just walking around town today. and playing some card games and talking and fooling around and playing basketball and on playgrounds. it was a day in which a lot of stress was relieved and there was no worry whatsoever.
went to dairy barn and finally visited m after a year of him telling me to visit him. but apparently it doesn't count cause i didn't go in.
and i had the most lovely dinner date with j. it was nice. we just sat and talked. he's always one of the best people i can sit down and talk to now.
and then my whole night flipped. let's just say i ran around town for an hour all on foot.
i don't remember if i wrote about this or not; but having the dinner date made me realize something. well i realized this before but this might be the first time i'm putting this into words.
i'll always remember a story my dad told me at the dinner table.
he told me that his grandpa (so my great grandpa) was almost killed during the japanese/chinese war. it was told that he was walking down the street and the japanese were chasing him. however, my great grandpa lo, you see, the lo's are a tall bunch. apparently he jumped in through a window and escaped. so you see, the moral of this story is, is if the lo tall gene wasn't there, i wouldn't be here typing this to you right now. then three generations of lo's wouldn't be here on this earth right now.
and that got me thinking.
about all the other lost souls that have been lost in the past. about family trees that have been cut off at the branches. who knows, if their lives were continued on, their little relatives could be here sitting next to us right now in life. or imagine if the people in our lives were not to be existed at all? and they were just cut off at the root.
what if the people in your life weren't there? and another group of people were?
enjoy the people you have in your life.
you never know when they might disappear.

day 12: graduation

and today i write to you as an official high school graduate. six years of high school work and drama leads all down to this one day.
graduation itself wasn't that bad. there were a couple 'inspirational' speeches and it made me think. that is the last time the whole class of 2011 will be in one room together.
graduation itself wasn't that bad. however, as expected of myself, as i walked half way across the stage, my cap and my diploma fell onto the floor at the same time. it was a smidge embarrassing but at that point i didn't even care. that is me. i'm a klutz. i drop things. i fall. i'm just surprised i didn't fall on my face. this is me.
after wards, my friends and i took a lot of pictures. they were needed for the memories.
afterwards, i went out with my family for a late lunch/early dinner. i ate a lot.
and speaking of 'inspirational' speeches, i'll leave you with this.
high school allows you to do things you've never imagined. it is in high school where you explore the person you are and express the potential you can hold. no matter how far, nor how long time brings us, high school will always hold us together. no matter how much we yearn to spread our wings and fly away from this town, our hearts always belong at home, in nhp. it is here where we slowly turned from little kids to young adults to nearly adults in general. here we are. after years and years of seeing the same faces growing up, it is time for all of us to spread our wings and fly. even though may still want to linger about the nest, you can never look back with regrets. you can only push yourself forward and soar into the sky.

day 11: day before graduation

i'm sick and tired of my mom telling me that i can't wear certain kinds of shoes. i have these 4 inch heels for prom. which i mean is tall, but i really like them a lot. my mom doesn't want me to wear them because i'm already so tall. and i don't usually like flaunting my tallness, but i really like these heels. i don't really care what people are going to say. i love the shoes. that's all that matters isn't it?
speaking of which, i'm vice president of the foreign language honor society. and i don't even get to get a flhs pin. lol. hopeless. in order to get a pin on graduation, you needed to take a foreign language class, which i didn't this year. but oh wells.
i'm excited for tomorrow. six years of high school and it comes down to this one day. i've done so many things during my high school career that i'm extremely proud of. some more meaningful to me than to other people but meaningful to me nonetheless. i'm glad i got to grow up in this town, at this school. i'm glad i got to grow up the right way and not be screwed up. even though to my friends, this town is just a place to get away from, i'll always remember the times i've had. i'll always remember the house where i slapped a boy in the face because he took my bike. i'll remember the tree that i used to play at during the elementary school days with my friends. i'll remember sitting on a certain pavement alone just thinking to myself in the shade. i'll remember where i had my first kiss. i'll remember the town. the people.
the day of graduation doesn't also mean the end of high school.
it represents adulthood too. moving on, away from the kids that i always knew since i could remember. of course i don't talk to many of them now. we have cliques and groups. things changed since 6th grade graduation. the next time graduation is relived again will be in college.
and even then things won't be the same.

day 10: prom

i sit and type to you here in one piece. i have survived the aftermath of prom, and after prom itself.
i don't know what to say besides that my whole day through night was just topsy turvy. prom itself was lovely. there was a photobooth and there was a lot of candy and just sitting at the table looking at my friends all dressed up. whether they were dolled up or had a suit on, the whole moment was just lovely.
and then after prom came. and there was a lot of babysitting going on. a lot. which i knew was going to end up happening. and i was overwhelmed with it. i couldn't take it.
but at least all of us came home in one piece. and things are all good.
prom maybe wasn't 100% the most happiest night of my life.
but you say it's quite memorable.
i just wish i could just get some memories out of my head.

day 9: preprom

it's the middle of the day. it's two minutes after twelve to be precise. i am writing to you from my kitchen table. prom is in precisely 5 hours. and i still haven't showered. or take any preparation in prom whatsoever.
however, i did attend my gradation rehearsal this morning. and i got my cap and gown. it's coming way too fast.
well i guess i'm writing now because well. tonight i surely won't have time. oh boy, i bet the post is going to be amazing and long tomorrow. if i have the energy to write it at least.
i love how at night, before i go to sleep, i always think of the best things to write in my blog. and then when i get to my computer i don't remember anything whatsoever.
i guess i'll write about people today. a /rant if you will.
nothing really to rant about.
OMG ACTUALLY I HAVE SOMETHING.
so during the school year, for the whole month of june, i cut gym class and well, didn't go. so today when i was going to graduation rehearsal, i saw my gym teacher sitting with a security guard that i know. i said hello but my teacher didn't say anything back. he was just giving me a blank stare. i guess he had nothing to say to me. i can't blame him though. today was my first time in the gym after like what? 3 weeks? of not being in gym. and not to mention, he sp0tted me in the cafeteria one day when i was cutting his class. but not like that was going to do anything.. oh wells. i'm glad i cut. so yeah, i got a 50 in class. i threw away one marking period of gym after having attending every freaking gym class and any other class in my high school career. sure it was a dick move for me to do. but i really hated that class. if it wasn't gym, it would have been another class.
and well, gym is just a waste of my time.
i guess i should go now, get ready or something.
till tomorrow,
xx me

day 8

tomorrow is the day. tomorrow is the day that i've been looking forward to all this time. i have my dress. i have my shoes. i have my clutch. i have a hairstyle in mind. and i have what kind of make up in mind.
tomorrow either is going to be an absolute bore or one of the greatest times of my life. i'm hoping for it to be one of the greatest times of my life. let's just hope the rain doesn't ruin it.
that's it.
nothing else to say.
not really in the mood.

day 7: nothing

i did three major things today. actually two.
i decided not to go to the spanish club officer breakfast today. i got my sleep back on.
r came over after the breakfast, and hung out with me for a smidge. we had our girl talk (:
then i went to work. and made like. my 2 dollars worth. -_-
time for a new job. a little more than 1 week and it'll be done i think.
nothing new today.
is it weird that for the first time in my life, i am tired of blogging?

day 6: trap

today will probably be the last time i will see my architecture teachers and/or architecture classmates ever again. i woke up the earliest i have all week at a bright an early time of eight o'clock for an early morning review for my architecture regents. it was my last regents and it was the only regents i've ever worked three years just to complete.
the regents was easy. the review went over exactly what was on the test. afterwards, my architecture friends and i went to the park and hung out. and got some food to eat. it was a short hanging out session. but it was better than nothing.

forever our class picture. class of 2011.

ski and i


i got home and played a little mario kart with my siblings.
then eventually went out with my trap br0s. it was probably one of the first times i ditched the responsibility of planning a hang out. but i'm proud of them. we went to the park and played basketball for a little bit. and we were sp0tted but that's okay :) from j and her date. and then we went to eat gelato. i had it for the first time today. it was like ice cream but a lot creamier. it was yummy. and then we eventually went to another park to play ping pong. which was amazingly fun. i missed moments like this. just fooling around. and having fun. and not having things planned out days in advanced.

day 5: father's day

my god, i'm sitting here and i can't even think of a god way to start the blog today. today is father's day. my neighbors came over for a bbq and two of my girlfriends came over.
i watched sex and the city today. until megavideo shut me down.
man. this morning i had a really good topic to write in my blog but i forgot what.
but i can tell you that right now i'm thinking about how things are going so fast. and i thought the school year was going by fast. starting tomorrow, my social life will be close to none until after prom. there are so many preparations to do before prom. nonetheless how i'm wasting so much money and i have so many things to do. my money is depleting so fast especially since i spent like. 4/5 of the money i got from the bank on friday just for the palette from urban decay. but it was a product well spent. i feel like putting makeup on everyday even though i shouldn't. i guess i'm just really excited about the product.
last night i had a realization about the general topic of 'what could have been'. there are so many people this year that have became a big part of my life. and it was something that triggered it. i don't know exactly what for each person but something did. and it made me think, what if my bestfriendship with s didn't break apart? would i be where i am right now? would i be as badass? would i be willing to do things on my own without asking for advice constantly?
i think the answer to all those questions are no. i've learned a lot about myself and i guess i've evolved onto a whole new form of independency. during this short allotted, i taught myself to deal with things myself and only ask for help in a time of need. i've learned a lot about myself without having someone constantly hovering over my shoulder constantly worried. even though we're just nearly friends now, i know s still worries for me. i've heard things that he has said and he even has that worried face on whenever i told him the watered down version of my badassery at school when he asked about my weekend. i guess i do that purposely too; to show him that i'm a whole new person and that i don't need him in my life. i didn't ever need him in my life. i was perfectly fine on my own to make my own decisions, to explore teenage life by myself.
but most of all, i think the most important thing that i've learned this year is:
that boys come and gone, but you always have your girlfriends.
and that is so fucking relevant

day 4: fairs

i came home today and looked at the clock. the clock read 12:58 am. here i am, coming home later and later. and i'm not even coming home from anything bad too. i had another night but this time s was there. but eventually it was just j and i sitting and talking as usual.

i spent the day with my friends going to two different fairs/carnivals. and we arrived just on time to see the fireworks on the second one.

i had a lot of fun today. today was full of adventure. i'm not used to blogging every day about my life anymore. i was used to it last year but this year not so much. i should take more pictures. a picture is worth a thousand words right?

well i'm going to head off.
it's only oh. one something in the morning.
so i guess.. goodmorning!

day 3: feminine palette

I GOT THIS PALETTE TODAY! after wanting this baby for so long, i finally found it in the store when on the website it specifically says online only. nonetheless, i was excited. this was my first sephora purchase made for me. and i'm really excited to use all of these colors!

going to use this palette for proooooom!
excited!
and i got my sheets for college.
lol.

edit: 12:34 am
well technically this is part of day 4 but i mean i haven't gone to sleep yet so it's still the same day.
i snuck out today. again. well this time it's more legit. with my family sleeping at night and everything.
i hung out with j. we drove around and talked. he got me a stuffed animal turtle from the fair. it was great catching up time.
i'm not tired yet. perhaps i'll go blog or something.

day 2

the majority of my day consisted of running errands before work. i decided to go to check out some drug stores to buy an eyelash curler. i was meaning to buy one for a while. i finally found a decent priced one at rite aid. as i was getting ready to pay, the cashier asked if i had a rite aid card and i didn't. but the nice man behind me (with two cases of bud light i may add) nicely offered me his card.) and i saved fourteen cents. even though it was only fourteen cents, it made me smile. it was such a nice gesture :'). nice people like that give me hope.
then afterwards i went to the bank and waiting for 15 minutes because there was only one teller open. then i got money and went to panera to pick up 2 chicken chipotles for my sister and i.
i didn't get any rewards on my card.
then i walked back home. ate. played mario party with t and then we both went to work. work went a smidge faster than usual today. it gets slow until i see my two favorite students who coincidentally are in the same grade and have my old kindergarten/second grade teacher. then work goes fast.
seeing them makes me realize how fast times goes. i share something with these kids that i don't get to share with my current friends now. i've lived in this town all my life and i've seen people come and disappear. i grew up here. and i can't really talk about my old childhood past with my friends now because my friends haven't grown up with me until jr high school. those little students helped me remember how fast time has gone. and how life was like then.
i remembered (with the teacher they had) we had spelling word homework and we had to write sentences with the words in them. and i would be the over achiever and write a whole story. and i got extra credit.
but after 3rd grade things started going downhill. and my over achievements started to go failure status and then things went back up again.
i'll always remember those moments.

day 1

today was the first day of summer. it is also the first day that i am single for more or less than two months.
but let me start from the beginning.
i didn't do much today. i spent most of my day home. i cleaned my room. and r & b came over and we had a small talk session. there wasn't much to talk about because nothing new really came up but it was more or less the same news. then we went to panera and after that s & h came along.
it was a little bit awkward. i don't know why i'm writing this to the public because probably both of them will read this but i'm just typing it as a i see it.
and none the less, i think i have half of my friends who are going to give me a slight cold shoulder because of the break up.
i don't know. why am i even writing this.
seriously rosa. what are you doing.
whatever. this is what goes in my mind.
besides that, nothing really went on.
twas an alright first day of summer. i've had better.
oh well.
here's to a better day tomorrow