i hung out with j the whole day. i was supposed to go kayaking with my class today but i decided not too at an early time of 8:30 in the morning when i woke up with a cough attack. but the kayak trip was canceled anyway cause apparently it was supposed to rain but it didn't. j and i watched friends with benefits. it was alright but i think i liked no strings attached better. friends with benefits wasn't as funny. and we ordered chinese food and cuddled and hung out. but anyways.
this summer. was a blast. even though now i'm technically in college, i still enjoyed this summer.
the top 10 things i did this summer:
1: summer lovin'
2: be rebellious
3: sneak out
4: stay out
5: enjoyed all the time i could with my bestest friends
6: went to six flags
7: see harry potter & the deathly hallows part 2 at midnight, & see the cast/breathe the same air as the main cast of harry potter, & see the harry potter exhibit
8: sleepover with my girls
9: see hey monday & we the kings in free concert
10: walk in the rain with my trap
this summer was a great summer. even though this year i haven't blogged as well as i did last year, it's still here.
i'm glad i did this. so here you are folks. the summer of 2011 all written in eighty three posts.
if i'm going to blog, i will blog back on my normally.
here you go:
http://r0zdarling.blogspot.com/
good bye summer 2011
you were good to me
Monday, September 5, 2011
Sunday, September 4, 2011
day 82
so i'm sitting i the laundry room of my dorm and waiting for my clothes to dry. i haven't done much today. just sit around. it's very hot today. feels like it's the near 90's when in actuality it's just in the high 80's. my cousin visited me today at my dorm. she got me a vietnamese sandwich and got me stuff that she got from hong kong. it was nice seeing her and we had a lovely talk.
considering today's is hysterically hot, i'm just going to sit indoors and not even bother to go out. school is slowly coming closer. tomorrow is the officially last day of summer. even though i'm at school, i don't officially start classes until tuesday.
the college life has been good to me so far. i wanted to go home today to grab some extra stuff but considering the heat, i decided not to go home. perhaps next weekend if i'm up for it.
usually i do enjoy summer a lot but as of right now, i just want the weather to get cooler. i'm tired of the summer. i'm tired of the heat and humidity. i just want to wear jeans and a t-shirt and not worry if it's too hot or too cold or anything else. and even if the weather allows for even a sweater too, that'd be nice.
by the time classes start though, i'm pretty sure things will be slightly different. hopefully i'll get to see my floormates like i did for the past week. i've really grown close to them. and they remind me of my relationship with my high school friends. it's the whole family feel.
yeh so. i'm done blogging for the day.
shmell ya tomorrow
considering today's is hysterically hot, i'm just going to sit indoors and not even bother to go out. school is slowly coming closer. tomorrow is the officially last day of summer. even though i'm at school, i don't officially start classes until tuesday.
the college life has been good to me so far. i wanted to go home today to grab some extra stuff but considering the heat, i decided not to go home. perhaps next weekend if i'm up for it.
usually i do enjoy summer a lot but as of right now, i just want the weather to get cooler. i'm tired of the summer. i'm tired of the heat and humidity. i just want to wear jeans and a t-shirt and not worry if it's too hot or too cold or anything else. and even if the weather allows for even a sweater too, that'd be nice.
by the time classes start though, i'm pretty sure things will be slightly different. hopefully i'll get to see my floormates like i did for the past week. i've really grown close to them. and they remind me of my relationship with my high school friends. it's the whole family feel.
yeh so. i'm done blogging for the day.
shmell ya tomorrow
Saturday, September 3, 2011
day 81
j came over today.
my suitemates, j, and i went to target.
it was really hot outside.
i only have one pair of shorts with me.
i was expecting freaking fall to be here already.
j hung out with my friends.
and me.
it was nice.
we had chinese food.
and watched tv in the lounge.
we watched extreme couponing.
ive never seen that show before.
tis a good show
good day.
my suitemates, j, and i went to target.
it was really hot outside.
i only have one pair of shorts with me.
i was expecting freaking fall to be here already.
j hung out with my friends.
and me.
it was nice.
we had chinese food.
and watched tv in the lounge.
we watched extreme couponing.
ive never seen that show before.
tis a good show
good day.
day 80
i forgot to blog again
yesterday t and i went to soho/noho to look for a shop
we found the shop
and we window shopped
then we went back home
and got ready for the nyu monsterball
i had no fun
i just sat around
it literally was a club status.
2 floors of partying. :O
my friends all got girls' numbers
and i, being the taken one, just sat on the side
sigh.
yesterday t and i went to soho/noho to look for a shop
we found the shop
and we window shopped
then we went back home
and got ready for the nyu monsterball
i had no fun
i just sat around
it literally was a club status.
2 floors of partying. :O
my friends all got girls' numbers
and i, being the taken one, just sat on the side
sigh.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
day 78
i'm sitting in my dorm playing connect four on my roommate's bed. yes we are playing the physical version of connect four. i haven't touched a physical version of the game in so long.
this morning, i had went on a bus tour that i had rsvped for weeks in advanced. the bus that picked us up was the typical red double decker bus. it was my first time on a bus like that even though i have lived here all my life. the weather was perfect but i felt a little hot. i met some new people and a girl on tumblr that i followed. it was nice. but it was a little too long.
basically nothing else happened. besides that. then i just hung out with the guys as usual.
this morning, i had went on a bus tour that i had rsvped for weeks in advanced. the bus that picked us up was the typical red double decker bus. it was my first time on a bus like that even though i have lived here all my life. the weather was perfect but i felt a little hot. i met some new people and a girl on tumblr that i followed. it was nice. but it was a little too long.
basically nothing else happened. besides that. then i just hung out with the guys as usual.
day 77
man, i forgot to blog yesterday.
yesterday was convocation. it was very interesting to say the least.
there were the traditional bagpipes at the convocation. five bagpipe players.
and i played mario party till like midnight, and then lost.
and my roommate moved in!
yesterday was convocation. it was very interesting to say the least.
there were the traditional bagpipes at the convocation. five bagpipe players.
and i played mario party till like midnight, and then lost.
and my roommate moved in!
Monday, August 29, 2011
day 76
i got to explore a little bit of the poly campus today with g. i'm thankful he's around to show me places.
today i got to see a familiar face. j came to visit me in my dorm (: we went to five guys to eat lunch! it was the first time i had five guys. i heard a lot of good things about five guys but my expectations were killed. the placed allowed you to put whatever you wanted on the burger but even then the burger was messy and it tasted like every other burger i've had. the fries were made from real potatoes too so i wasn't really enjoying it.
but afterwards, j and i took a walk and walked the brooklyn bridge! it was the first time i set foot on the brooklyn bridge by walking. i've seen it in movies and drove on it in a car but never walked on it by foot! it was amazing. i remember seeing a documentary about it in architecture. a lot of hard work was put into this fantastic, famous landmark.
and then we were both tired and went back into my dorm room and cuddled.
during that time, my suitemate moved in :D she seems really nice. shy, but nice. but that was me on my first day. i just have to let her break in a little.
in general, the day was just a good day.
tomorrow starts my official day convocation. hopefully it turns out well!
till tomorrow
xx
today i got to see a familiar face. j came to visit me in my dorm (: we went to five guys to eat lunch! it was the first time i had five guys. i heard a lot of good things about five guys but my expectations were killed. the placed allowed you to put whatever you wanted on the burger but even then the burger was messy and it tasted like every other burger i've had. the fries were made from real potatoes too so i wasn't really enjoying it.
but afterwards, j and i took a walk and walked the brooklyn bridge! it was the first time i set foot on the brooklyn bridge by walking. i've seen it in movies and drove on it in a car but never walked on it by foot! it was amazing. i remember seeing a documentary about it in architecture. a lot of hard work was put into this fantastic, famous landmark.
and then we were both tired and went back into my dorm room and cuddled.
during that time, my suitemate moved in :D she seems really nice. shy, but nice. but that was me on my first day. i just have to let her break in a little.
in general, the day was just a good day.
tomorrow starts my official day convocation. hopefully it turns out well!
till tomorrow
xx
Sunday, August 28, 2011
day 75
a few more days until this blog is completely shut down. as of right now, i'm sitting in my dorm. it's lonely in my dorm but that's okay. i needed the alone time.
i had a really nice day today. i spent most of the time with my dormmates, t and s. first i hung out with t and played mario party. i won, with six stars. :D and then afterwards, s came and then we all went out to get lunch. we had lunch at a place called concord market. i was expecting a market but in actuality, it was a deli. i had a monte cristo panini. it was so good. and it came with an iced tea and chips. classy. let's just say i had that.. hmm. about six hours ago? and i'm still satisfied for my belly. i'll probably have to order some late night food later tonight for dinner though.
and then later, we just hung out in t's room. and then a came and just sat and hang until i decided to come back into my room.
a lot of the things here is very self service.
when i came back into my room, t told me how to open the lock on my room. you had to go on the internet to find the access code. very self service indeed.
as of right now, i don't really miss my family and friends that much. i feel very open and i'm liking the new experiences. i feel very welcomed here and i've already made pretty fantastic buddies.
well i think i'm going to shower now, or something. or find something to do. like read. till tomorrow
xx
i had a really nice day today. i spent most of the time with my dormmates, t and s. first i hung out with t and played mario party. i won, with six stars. :D and then afterwards, s came and then we all went out to get lunch. we had lunch at a place called concord market. i was expecting a market but in actuality, it was a deli. i had a monte cristo panini. it was so good. and it came with an iced tea and chips. classy. let's just say i had that.. hmm. about six hours ago? and i'm still satisfied for my belly. i'll probably have to order some late night food later tonight for dinner though.
and then later, we just hung out in t's room. and then a came and just sat and hang until i decided to come back into my room.
a lot of the things here is very self service.
when i came back into my room, t told me how to open the lock on my room. you had to go on the internet to find the access code. very self service indeed.
as of right now, i don't really miss my family and friends that much. i feel very open and i'm liking the new experiences. i feel very welcomed here and i've already made pretty fantastic buddies.
well i think i'm going to shower now, or something. or find something to do. like read. till tomorrow
xx
Saturday, August 27, 2011
day 74
today was my first day of moving in. and i'm sitting here playing monopoly star edition with some people i met. today it was rainy but that's okay. the move wasn't that bad. i was the first one in my dorm. it was nice. i don't know these people yet but it was easy so far. of course i'm hanging out with the boys.
so yeah im going to get back to this game.
bye!!
so yeah im going to get back to this game.
bye!!
Friday, August 26, 2011
day 73
and alas, here it is, my last night in nhp.
i spent it with j. we went to dave and busters and got a lot of tickets. and surprisingly, i had a lot of good luck on my side today. and won a lot. good chances.
i believe in good luck. a lot.
it's surreal. as my luggage is sitting across the room from me. i've never been away from home, alone, ever. it'll be an adventure. and especially with this hurricane coming. it's supposed to be a really big one. or from what everyone makes it out to be. we've already been placed under warnings and such. the only thing that scares me is food because i have no idea what i'm going to do without it. especially when i don't have a kitchen. i guess i'm going to have to go to the bank tomorrow to get some extra cash out.
i hope everything goes well this weekend. a little power outage would be nice but not for long. i hope everyone is safe and that nothing gets flooded and crazy. heck, i hope i'm okay. i'm so near the shoreline.
well i should be heading off. getting some rest. (even though i probably won't be getting some rest)
hopefully there will be enough wifi and internet for me tomorrow, bye!
i spent it with j. we went to dave and busters and got a lot of tickets. and surprisingly, i had a lot of good luck on my side today. and won a lot. good chances.
i believe in good luck. a lot.
it's surreal. as my luggage is sitting across the room from me. i've never been away from home, alone, ever. it'll be an adventure. and especially with this hurricane coming. it's supposed to be a really big one. or from what everyone makes it out to be. we've already been placed under warnings and such. the only thing that scares me is food because i have no idea what i'm going to do without it. especially when i don't have a kitchen. i guess i'm going to have to go to the bank tomorrow to get some extra cash out.
i hope everything goes well this weekend. a little power outage would be nice but not for long. i hope everyone is safe and that nothing gets flooded and crazy. heck, i hope i'm okay. i'm so near the shoreline.
well i should be heading off. getting some rest. (even though i probably won't be getting some rest)
hopefully there will be enough wifi and internet for me tomorrow, bye!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
day 72
as i sit here wiping away my tears, s, h, r, and j are all heading off to college tomorrow.
it breaks my heart.
and i cried so many tears today. even though i know i'll see them again. it's just knowing that they're not just down the block from me anymore.
i just had nyquil, i'm not tired yet.
even though i should go to bed.
ill miss you guys.
please don't forget me.
please.
it breaks my heart.
and i cried so many tears today. even though i know i'll see them again. it's just knowing that they're not just down the block from me anymore.
i just had nyquil, i'm not tired yet.
even though i should go to bed.
ill miss you guys.
please don't forget me.
please.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
day 71
So i'm sitting in the park with j and watching j, j, and s and watching them play buzzed basketball. Tonight will be one of the last nights we will have each other.
edit
so i came home. the above was because i was blogging on s's phone but it was too hard to type. today was a good day.
my throat still hurts.
goodnight
edit
so i came home. the above was because i was blogging on s's phone but it was too hard to type. today was a good day.
my throat still hurts.
goodnight
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
day 70: surprise party
so today my friends and i successfully threw a surprise party for r and s. well, sort of. i was with 2 friends hiding but then they spotted the two of them because j drove in the wrong direction.
but r was surprised i was there. cause i lied and told her i was going to be in dc for like a whole week.
i got her 18 different sticky notes. and she loved them! :D i'm happy she did. after a short talk, i had to go to douglaston to go shopping with my parents. i got some leggings and some scoop neck tshirts and a jean jacket. just the simple stuff that i wear. then i went to target with dad to get stuff for college.
and then i went home and got ice cream with the kids that i originally hung out with except i didnt get ice cream because i have a fever slash sore throat. i guess i shouldn't be going out to begin with but i really didn't want to regret it or miss anything.
and then we went to the park to play man hunt and b y the time the first round was over, i was too over heated to play anymore so j bought me home. sigh. xD
so here i am, home, a zombie and blogging.
see how committed i am?
but r was surprised i was there. cause i lied and told her i was going to be in dc for like a whole week.
i got her 18 different sticky notes. and she loved them! :D i'm happy she did. after a short talk, i had to go to douglaston to go shopping with my parents. i got some leggings and some scoop neck tshirts and a jean jacket. just the simple stuff that i wear. then i went to target with dad to get stuff for college.
and then i went home and got ice cream with the kids that i originally hung out with except i didnt get ice cream because i have a fever slash sore throat. i guess i shouldn't be going out to begin with but i really didn't want to regret it or miss anything.
and then we went to the park to play man hunt and b y the time the first round was over, i was too over heated to play anymore so j bought me home. sigh. xD
so here i am, home, a zombie and blogging.
see how committed i am?
Monday, August 22, 2011
day 68: virginia
shall edit
edit
saw the caverns in virginia
it was eery and cool.
dark.
nature is pretty cool.
passed by the pentagon.
had a fantastic lunch.
asian people were annoying again.
edit
saw the caverns in virginia
it was eery and cool.
dark.
nature is pretty cool.
passed by the pentagon.
had a fantastic lunch.
asian people were annoying again.
day 67: washington dc
shall edit
Edit
first we stopped off at philadelphia, pennsylvania and saw the liberty bell
i saw a lot of things in washinton dc.
went to the washington monument, jefferson memorial, and the white house.
and ate at two buffets.
asian people are annoying.
Edit
first we stopped off at philadelphia, pennsylvania and saw the liberty bell
i saw a lot of things in washinton dc.
went to the washington monument, jefferson memorial, and the white house.
and ate at two buffets.
asian people are annoying.
Friday, August 19, 2011
day 66
before i forget, heres a sentence so it counts as a blog.
edit 11:42 pm:
so i went to the mall with j today. and basically just bought some basic clothing for college. i got new leggings, skinny jeans, and a skirt. i'm ready. i'll be going to dc tomorrow, so i doubt i can blog.
so. yeah. till then.
edit 11:42 pm:
so i went to the mall with j today. and basically just bought some basic clothing for college. i got new leggings, skinny jeans, and a skirt. i'm ready. i'll be going to dc tomorrow, so i doubt i can blog.
so. yeah. till then.
day 65
i didn't blog yesterday, but for a good reason.
last day was my last day of kumon. hip hip horray!
my boss told me good luck and she told me to visit her.
yesterday was also the last day i was going to see b for a very long time.
so here's to you girl.
dear b,
yesterday i could barely say any words to you through my tears. i tried so hard to hold them in but i guess years and years of our friendship just caused them to leak out. you were a part of my childhood and teenage years; a big one. probably the most impactful out of all our friends. i've known you the longest and probably continued to know you for the longest. you were a light in darkness. your laughter can break any sad emotions. you are strong. you are brave. you are fierce.
i'll always remember our silly moments together. we always had that telepathy together. not only did we share the same birthday, but we shared a lot of the same moments. sometimes, you'd only say one or two words and i'd be able to finish it. i grew up watching you grow and you grew up watching me grow. we've changed a lot from when we were little munchkin 6th graders. we grew up to be two fierce young women who will not let people tear us down. you are an adventure.
i'll always remember our moments. from making pointless vlogs EVEN from before vlogs were cool. singing karaoke at your house. playing mario kart. attempting to prank the school before school ended. but failed. making cookies for red cross. bike riding. me nearly getting hit down that block. going to bob howards.
there were so many.
i'd like to say thank you. thank you for being there for me. from my first major breakup to my emo moments to my rock moments. you were there.
have fun in tennessee. don't scare off dem farmers with yo' new york style.
i'll see you soon.
-rosa
last day was my last day of kumon. hip hip horray!
my boss told me good luck and she told me to visit her.
yesterday was also the last day i was going to see b for a very long time.
so here's to you girl.
dear b,
yesterday i could barely say any words to you through my tears. i tried so hard to hold them in but i guess years and years of our friendship just caused them to leak out. you were a part of my childhood and teenage years; a big one. probably the most impactful out of all our friends. i've known you the longest and probably continued to know you for the longest. you were a light in darkness. your laughter can break any sad emotions. you are strong. you are brave. you are fierce.
i'll always remember our silly moments together. we always had that telepathy together. not only did we share the same birthday, but we shared a lot of the same moments. sometimes, you'd only say one or two words and i'd be able to finish it. i grew up watching you grow and you grew up watching me grow. we've changed a lot from when we were little munchkin 6th graders. we grew up to be two fierce young women who will not let people tear us down. you are an adventure.
i'll always remember our moments. from making pointless vlogs EVEN from before vlogs were cool. singing karaoke at your house. playing mario kart. attempting to prank the school before school ended. but failed. making cookies for red cross. bike riding. me nearly getting hit down that block. going to bob howards.
there were so many.
i'd like to say thank you. thank you for being there for me. from my first major breakup to my emo moments to my rock moments. you were there.
have fun in tennessee. don't scare off dem farmers with yo' new york style.
i'll see you soon.
-rosa
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
day 64
stayed at home
played videogames with the boys
what do you do when you have to chose between plans you've made with your boy a while ago vs plans made the day before hand with everyone else? :/
played videogames with the boys
what do you do when you have to chose between plans you've made with your boy a while ago vs plans made the day before hand with everyone else? :/
day 63
i forgot to blog yesterday. i just went to work.
thats it
the girl who was supposed to replace me didnt come
so its a big FUCKK YOUUU
and i got one of my friends who i can actually depend on to come.
thats it
the girl who was supposed to replace me didnt come
so its a big FUCKK YOUUU
and i got one of my friends who i can actually depend on to come.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
day 62
i didn't blog yesterday.
shun me.
i just hung out with friends.
... that's about it.
and saw final destination 5/
edit 12:35 pm
so i just had breakfast and now currently have the patience to blog.
yesterday morning i woke up bright and early for a meet up with my ap physics class & teacher for a lunch at panera bread. sadly, only 2 people, a and j, were able to make it, and of course mr.c but it was nice seeing them. we talked about what we've done the past summer and what was in store for us in college. all the talks mr.c gave us during the school year about college were coming to life. he kept telling us to do our laundry. he told us at least five times. we also started talking about our past physics class and what he could have done better. of course i was the only one to say anything. and then we started talking about how me and physics don't go together. and then he said that i should go into design. and which i have thought about before. i guess i have yet to realize what i'm good at. i'm good at math. i do have some artistic capability. i am fruity and fun and a kid and creative. i should work for disney. hell, that's my dream job. that'd just be amazing. everything about disney is amazing and just. *le sigh.
anywhosiles.
after that i went home and just waited out until my next plans. and then went to b's house for a little hang out. we played mario kart on game cube. i've never played mario kart on game cube until recently that i've gone to her house to play. of course there's a little lag from the aging of the game but it's pretty intense. every time my friends and i play, there's a lot of cursing and fiercity in the room. and i guess that means that it's a really good game of mario kart.
it was nice seeing everyone together at the same time. b is leaving for tennessee this friday. i'm going to miss her a lot. i've known her for YEARS AND YEARS. her going to tennessee seems so... surreal. i know for a fact it's not goodbye though. it's only goodbye if you say goodbye. and i guess the moment she leaves for college is the rude awakening that all of my friends (and including me) will be heading off soon to our different paths. and that this is real life. and this might be the last time you will see these people again.
like when s and i went to the hey monday concert the other day, that might be the last time i'll see him. maybe forever. if anything. and that scares me. especially when we're talking about people who mean so much to me in my life. and b, i've known her for years. even though there were some times where we had a rough patch (like in all friendships and relationships with people), we also had a lot of amazing times. and those are the moments we are both going to remember.
and then after b leaves, one by one everyone else is going to leave. i will be one of the last people to leave from my 'group of friends'. i think the second to last. i'm a little scared. it's like summer camp but longer and more difficult. my room mate seems amazing though. i like how she's so.. out there. and she's not shy. which is fantastic because i won't be afraid to not spark a conversation. i meant that as in, i didn't want to be the only one talking. but i'm excited.
man. so much for just writing a little bit.
but anyway. continuing on without sidetracking.
after i met up with my friends, i went home because i was tired. i rested up a little and then went out with j to continue with our plans for the night. even though i screwed them up because i insisted on seeing my friends. and he was a little mad, the night was amazing. we saw final destination 5 in 3d. that was the first time i've ever seen any final destination movie. and i'm pretty sure i have the first final destination on tape in my house. i guess i mixed up final destination with final fantasty. xD spoiler: so anyway. final destination, if you didn't know so already (because i didn't know to begin with) is about a group of people who were supposed to die on a trip, but then someone with a vision foreshadows the event and basically saves everyone's life. but then as everyone continues on with their life, death has a way of finding them because well, they "cheated death". and the movie shows how each person died. from the six people that were left living, about one or two of them had a very.. "juicy" death. everyone else had a crazy way of dying that was just way too over exaggerated. like one of the girls died when she was on the gymnast bar. when she was swinging around, the flour-like-white-powder stuff was in the air and clouded the air and i guess she let go. why? i have no idea. but anyway, she flew into the air, landed on her neck, and her body bent backwards and then her thigh bone was like coming out through her thigh. i don't know how on earth that is possible. it's just so.. over dramatic. and a lot of the graphics were clearly fake. i guess their budget for special effects were lacking. i was more scared of what could happen than what actually happened.
after that we got italian ices as usual. we saw k there. i got the carribean splash. i usually get passion fruit but this one was pretty good too, more citric-y. i got hyper. and then we went for mini golf round two. i was doing so well in the beginning but then i crashed during the last round. we ended up tieing. i did a lot better than i did the first time. so i'm guessing next time we play mini golf, i will win! well... hopefully. after that we just took a walk and the park that we usually sneak into had it's fence fixed. so we just took a walk. the park smelt like weed. everywhere. we saw a. he asked me where h was. and it was.. well awkward. he probably thinks h & i were still together. or something.. anyway. then we just went back into the car, and believe it or not, we both fell asleep. i guess we were both pooped out.
that's why i didn't blog last night. cause i was wiped out.
and i guess this blog post turned out to be a lot longer than i wanted it to be.
and i still have to blog for today too.
so, BYE.
shun me.
i just hung out with friends.
... that's about it.
and saw final destination 5/
edit 12:35 pm
so i just had breakfast and now currently have the patience to blog.
yesterday morning i woke up bright and early for a meet up with my ap physics class & teacher for a lunch at panera bread. sadly, only 2 people, a and j, were able to make it, and of course mr.c but it was nice seeing them. we talked about what we've done the past summer and what was in store for us in college. all the talks mr.c gave us during the school year about college were coming to life. he kept telling us to do our laundry. he told us at least five times. we also started talking about our past physics class and what he could have done better. of course i was the only one to say anything. and then we started talking about how me and physics don't go together. and then he said that i should go into design. and which i have thought about before. i guess i have yet to realize what i'm good at. i'm good at math. i do have some artistic capability. i am fruity and fun and a kid and creative. i should work for disney. hell, that's my dream job. that'd just be amazing. everything about disney is amazing and just. *le sigh.
anywhosiles.
after that i went home and just waited out until my next plans. and then went to b's house for a little hang out. we played mario kart on game cube. i've never played mario kart on game cube until recently that i've gone to her house to play. of course there's a little lag from the aging of the game but it's pretty intense. every time my friends and i play, there's a lot of cursing and fiercity in the room. and i guess that means that it's a really good game of mario kart.
it was nice seeing everyone together at the same time. b is leaving for tennessee this friday. i'm going to miss her a lot. i've known her for YEARS AND YEARS. her going to tennessee seems so... surreal. i know for a fact it's not goodbye though. it's only goodbye if you say goodbye. and i guess the moment she leaves for college is the rude awakening that all of my friends (and including me) will be heading off soon to our different paths. and that this is real life. and this might be the last time you will see these people again.
like when s and i went to the hey monday concert the other day, that might be the last time i'll see him. maybe forever. if anything. and that scares me. especially when we're talking about people who mean so much to me in my life. and b, i've known her for years. even though there were some times where we had a rough patch (like in all friendships and relationships with people), we also had a lot of amazing times. and those are the moments we are both going to remember.
and then after b leaves, one by one everyone else is going to leave. i will be one of the last people to leave from my 'group of friends'. i think the second to last. i'm a little scared. it's like summer camp but longer and more difficult. my room mate seems amazing though. i like how she's so.. out there. and she's not shy. which is fantastic because i won't be afraid to not spark a conversation. i meant that as in, i didn't want to be the only one talking. but i'm excited.
man. so much for just writing a little bit.
but anyway. continuing on without sidetracking.
after i met up with my friends, i went home because i was tired. i rested up a little and then went out with j to continue with our plans for the night. even though i screwed them up because i insisted on seeing my friends. and he was a little mad, the night was amazing. we saw final destination 5 in 3d. that was the first time i've ever seen any final destination movie. and i'm pretty sure i have the first final destination on tape in my house. i guess i mixed up final destination with final fantasty. xD spoiler: so anyway. final destination, if you didn't know so already (because i didn't know to begin with) is about a group of people who were supposed to die on a trip, but then someone with a vision foreshadows the event and basically saves everyone's life. but then as everyone continues on with their life, death has a way of finding them because well, they "cheated death". and the movie shows how each person died. from the six people that were left living, about one or two of them had a very.. "juicy" death. everyone else had a crazy way of dying that was just way too over exaggerated. like one of the girls died when she was on the gymnast bar. when she was swinging around, the flour-like-white-powder stuff was in the air and clouded the air and i guess she let go. why? i have no idea. but anyway, she flew into the air, landed on her neck, and her body bent backwards and then her thigh bone was like coming out through her thigh. i don't know how on earth that is possible. it's just so.. over dramatic. and a lot of the graphics were clearly fake. i guess their budget for special effects were lacking. i was more scared of what could happen than what actually happened.
after that we got italian ices as usual. we saw k there. i got the carribean splash. i usually get passion fruit but this one was pretty good too, more citric-y. i got hyper. and then we went for mini golf round two. i was doing so well in the beginning but then i crashed during the last round. we ended up tieing. i did a lot better than i did the first time. so i'm guessing next time we play mini golf, i will win! well... hopefully. after that we just took a walk and the park that we usually sneak into had it's fence fixed. so we just took a walk. the park smelt like weed. everywhere. we saw a. he asked me where h was. and it was.. well awkward. he probably thinks h & i were still together. or something.. anyway. then we just went back into the car, and believe it or not, we both fell asleep. i guess we were both pooped out.
that's why i didn't blog last night. cause i was wiped out.
and i guess this blog post turned out to be a lot longer than i wanted it to be.
and i still have to blog for today too.
so, BYE.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
day 61
im sort of tired of typing as a blog.
yesterday i saw hey monday for the second time in my life. it was amazing. the sound was amazing. the set list was amazing. they played all the old songs that i adore and i screamed all the lyrics that i knew. it was just amazing. i recorded a lot of songs on my camera and took a lot of pictures. some of them were half decent. which is not bad considering my camera is old.
and today i went out and bought stuff for.. yeah don't worry about it. (: for someone. and then hung out with j.
another night. another day of summer.
yesterday i saw hey monday for the second time in my life. it was amazing. the sound was amazing. the set list was amazing. they played all the old songs that i adore and i screamed all the lyrics that i knew. it was just amazing. i recorded a lot of songs on my camera and took a lot of pictures. some of them were half decent. which is not bad considering my camera is old.
and today i went out and bought stuff for.. yeah don't worry about it. (: for someone. and then hung out with j.
another night. another day of summer.
Friday, August 12, 2011
day 59
so i am typing this blog on my new laptop, isabell. i've used her before but my dad insisted on me using her to make sure that she works. and she does, amazingly. i've switched over to google chrome and i am lovin' it. maybe because this laptop is wiped clean, but google chrome is pretty fast and sleek. google is soon to take over the world. with youtube and google plus and many other things google owns, i'm not surprised if google will be the only thing in the future.
all i did today was watch jersey shore and project runway and met up with h today. he just came back from london a few days ago and we took a walk around town to catch up. sadly though, it was just too hot to do anything and i was wearing a man cotton shirt and basically sweating through it. while the walk was only an hour or so long, it was well worth it. it was nice seeing him. he's always in and out of the country (in reality, he only left twice but i barely saw him so i'd like to say in and out) but i missed seeing him.
sigh, day 59 already. and so far this blog has been a bust. nothing interesting has happened so far. but i guess it's nice for the reference even though i'm aware that no one reads this. in about two weeks, i will be heading off to college. it's surreal and i don't believe it. i'll be blogging during my first week of orientation too; considering it's not really school yet. and isabell will be there with me for the adventure :D
well i'm starving. and my mother just came home. i think i will go pester her about making food. till tomorrow!
byee
all i did today was watch jersey shore and project runway and met up with h today. he just came back from london a few days ago and we took a walk around town to catch up. sadly though, it was just too hot to do anything and i was wearing a man cotton shirt and basically sweating through it. while the walk was only an hour or so long, it was well worth it. it was nice seeing him. he's always in and out of the country (in reality, he only left twice but i barely saw him so i'd like to say in and out) but i missed seeing him.
sigh, day 59 already. and so far this blog has been a bust. nothing interesting has happened so far. but i guess it's nice for the reference even though i'm aware that no one reads this. in about two weeks, i will be heading off to college. it's surreal and i don't believe it. i'll be blogging during my first week of orientation too; considering it's not really school yet. and isabell will be there with me for the adventure :D
well i'm starving. and my mother just came home. i think i will go pester her about making food. till tomorrow!
byee
Thursday, August 11, 2011
day 58
all i did was go to work.
seriously.
and gathered up my college supplies all in one box.
and that's about it.
i have a bug bite on my arm that makes me look like pop eye's arm.
the end
seriously.
and gathered up my college supplies all in one box.
and that's about it.
i have a bug bite on my arm that makes me look like pop eye's arm.
the end
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
day 57
today started off as a simple day with a simple plan in mind. i was going to go out with j for sushi as dinner but things didn't go as planned.
so i ended up seeing my friends but not j. we played mario kart on the game cube and we ate chips and laughed and talked. it was nice. i missed seeing them. it wasn't the same.
and then i went home for dinner and texted j for italian ices. i had the same flavor but he had marshmallow.
and then we hung out and took a walk and gazed under the stars in the park.
we had a lovely night.
and he helped me figure out something.
i guess this has been in my mind for the longest time. i guess i've been worried about not keeping in contact with my friends. i guess i was worried about not talking to them ever again; especially since all of us are going to different places. but i guess what he made me realize is that this is life and that this is bound to happen. as hard as i'd wish to keep in contact, there is no point in trying so hard when the other people aren't trying right back.
why put in all the effort when they're not working just as hard.
well i'm oovooing with s and h.
and it's 2:31 am. i'm sort of tired, sort of not.
bye!
so i ended up seeing my friends but not j. we played mario kart on the game cube and we ate chips and laughed and talked. it was nice. i missed seeing them. it wasn't the same.
and then i went home for dinner and texted j for italian ices. i had the same flavor but he had marshmallow.
and then we hung out and took a walk and gazed under the stars in the park.
we had a lovely night.
and he helped me figure out something.
i guess this has been in my mind for the longest time. i guess i've been worried about not keeping in contact with my friends. i guess i was worried about not talking to them ever again; especially since all of us are going to different places. but i guess what he made me realize is that this is life and that this is bound to happen. as hard as i'd wish to keep in contact, there is no point in trying so hard when the other people aren't trying right back.
why put in all the effort when they're not working just as hard.
well i'm oovooing with s and h.
and it's 2:31 am. i'm sort of tired, sort of not.
bye!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
day 56
after waking up this morning, i was surprised to find that i didn't get as nearly in trouble as i thought i would be. because i lost my phone yesterday, i thought i was going to get screamed at.. endlessly for; especially since a little over a year ago, i killed my phone.
i woke up this morning and ran many errands with my dad. we ended up getting the mattress pad that i needed for school, a new laptop, a new phone, a new lamp and ink for my printer.
i was satisfied we got all that stuff.
i went to work again.
but at the end, boy was there to surprise pick me up.
and that made everything better (:
even though i only saw him for 2 minutes, he actually took the time out of his day to come pick me up since today was a rainy day.
and then i went home and ate up a storm.
and that is it.
i'm excited for the future.
i woke up this morning and ran many errands with my dad. we ended up getting the mattress pad that i needed for school, a new laptop, a new phone, a new lamp and ink for my printer.
i was satisfied we got all that stuff.
i went to work again.
but at the end, boy was there to surprise pick me up.
and that made everything better (:
even though i only saw him for 2 minutes, he actually took the time out of his day to come pick me up since today was a rainy day.
and then i went home and ate up a storm.
and that is it.
i'm excited for the future.
Monday, August 8, 2011
day 55: six flags
I'm sitting in the six flags parking on j's blackberry with him creeping next to me. But that's okay. We're waiting for the bus back to ny. Today was amazing. This was possibly one of the best days I've had in a long time. Even though we both woke up really early just to catch the bus, it was all worth while. However one bad thing did happen. I lost my phone on nitro. There is a slight chance of getting it back but most likely I won't. It's okay though. Taylor was a good phone. But he had his time. Why are all my phones so suicidal. First chuck jumping out of my pocket during basketball and now taylor jumping out during nitro. I just can't wait to go home to dear it from my dad tomorrow. I already told my mom...
Besides that,j and I had a fantastic time. He won me another stuffed animal. This time an elephant. I named him jacob.
Even though today was sweaty and hot, it was so worth while. It was worth the adventure.
The bus is heading back to ny now. Till tomorrow, Xx.
Besides that,j and I had a fantastic time. He won me another stuffed animal. This time an elephant. I named him jacob.
Even though today was sweaty and hot, it was so worth while. It was worth the adventure.
The bus is heading back to ny now. Till tomorrow, Xx.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
day 54
today. let me just say. was a fantastic day.
i got to see boy today at his lunch break!
and he made me a sandwich. (:
who said girls are the only one who make sandwiches like seriously.
but it was cute.
and it ended up being a little longer than his lunch break but that's okay. (:
he didn't get in trouble.
then i came home and later met up with boy and s to see harry potter and the deathly hallows again. i just love harry potter so much you see.
then we all took the bus home and i walked around my town with boy.
and it rained a little.
and then weirdly i said 'imagined if it rained even harder!' and well. it rained harder.
and then 2 blocks down i told the weather to stop raining. and then it did.
weird enough.
today was such a nice day.
and now i'm planning for a major trip for tomorrow.
tomorrow, a part of the gang and i shall be headin' for six flags before the summer is over.
i cannot wait. (:
i got to see boy today at his lunch break!
and he made me a sandwich. (:
who said girls are the only one who make sandwiches like seriously.
but it was cute.
and it ended up being a little longer than his lunch break but that's okay. (:
he didn't get in trouble.
then i came home and later met up with boy and s to see harry potter and the deathly hallows again. i just love harry potter so much you see.
then we all took the bus home and i walked around my town with boy.
and it rained a little.
and then weirdly i said 'imagined if it rained even harder!' and well. it rained harder.
and then 2 blocks down i told the weather to stop raining. and then it did.
weird enough.
today was such a nice day.
and now i'm planning for a major trip for tomorrow.
tomorrow, a part of the gang and i shall be headin' for six flags before the summer is over.
i cannot wait. (:
Saturday, August 6, 2011
day 53: and that's why i smile
for the first time in a long time, i actually spent the majority of my day outside the house.
i went to work. and went to lunch at panera with j and r.
and then i came home.
got my new glasses with s and got his new supras with him and j.
and then i came home and ate dinner and then j came over to hang out on my stoop in the rain.
i liked today.
a lot.
i should wake up earlier more often.
i went to work. and went to lunch at panera with j and r.
and then i came home.
got my new glasses with s and got his new supras with him and j.
and then i came home and ate dinner and then j came over to hang out on my stoop in the rain.
i liked today.
a lot.
i should wake up earlier more often.
Friday, August 5, 2011
day 52: harry potter the exhibition
today was purely devoted to traveling to times square for the harry potter the exhibition at the discovery museum. and then my friends and i spent the day at the city.
the exhibit was alright. it wasn't amazing but i saw a lot of interesting things i never thought i'd see. however there were a lot of things that weren't up to par. a lot of things were smaller than things showed in the movie. and it isn't movie affects or anything like that. objects were generally smaller.
the most interesting thing to me were the costumes even though i'm pretty sure there are more than one for back up and for scenes.
after that we ate food at shake shack and it was the first time i ever ate from there. and oh my god. the food there is so good. i got a shake burger and stole some fries from my friends but it was delicious. i wish i got more than one though! they were so perfectly cooked and the fries were perfectly fried. i had a mouth gasm.
and then we explored the city a little bit and i got tired and half of us went home early and the rest stayed home.
and i came home and ate dinner and just relaxed. it was an okay day. could have been better.
till tomorrow
bye!
the exhibit was alright. it wasn't amazing but i saw a lot of interesting things i never thought i'd see. however there were a lot of things that weren't up to par. a lot of things were smaller than things showed in the movie. and it isn't movie affects or anything like that. objects were generally smaller.
the most interesting thing to me were the costumes even though i'm pretty sure there are more than one for back up and for scenes.
after that we ate food at shake shack and it was the first time i ever ate from there. and oh my god. the food there is so good. i got a shake burger and stole some fries from my friends but it was delicious. i wish i got more than one though! they were so perfectly cooked and the fries were perfectly fried. i had a mouth gasm.
and then we explored the city a little bit and i got tired and half of us went home early and the rest stayed home.
and i came home and ate dinner and just relaxed. it was an okay day. could have been better.
till tomorrow
bye!
Thursday, August 4, 2011
day 51: five hours
i had five hours of sleep today. and its nearly midnight and i'm still up. how i am, i have no idea. but there's something running through my blood that's keeping me. xD
today j came over in the morning and we played some mario kart again. i lost. 3-1. for stupid reasons too. for minor points.
after that, i went to wize eyes to get a new pair of glasses. i got the same prescription and they're similar to my black frames except well. they're brown; a more vintagey feel.
and then i got a new polish today at the store. it a pale pink. i'm excited to try it out.
and then i went to work today. today went by fairly quickly. i had more patience. not a lot but it was there. and i graded papers quickly. it was something to do.
and then i went home. and ate a lot. and did nothing basically.
and i was going to watch jersey shore until it broke down on me midway while i was streaming it online. i was sad.
so yeah that's about it. i should go to bed. i have a big day of harry potter tomorrow (:
shmell ya later
today j came over in the morning and we played some mario kart again. i lost. 3-1. for stupid reasons too. for minor points.
after that, i went to wize eyes to get a new pair of glasses. i got the same prescription and they're similar to my black frames except well. they're brown; a more vintagey feel.
and then i got a new polish today at the store. it a pale pink. i'm excited to try it out.
and then i went to work today. today went by fairly quickly. i had more patience. not a lot but it was there. and i graded papers quickly. it was something to do.
and then i went home. and ate a lot. and did nothing basically.
and i was going to watch jersey shore until it broke down on me midway while i was streaming it online. i was sad.
so yeah that's about it. i should go to bed. i have a big day of harry potter tomorrow (:
shmell ya later
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
day 50: winnie the pooh
today was a short day. i was looking forward to just seeing winnie the pooh with j but then i decided to meet up with b, a, r & s. it was so nice seeing them. and joking with them. i haven't seen them in so long. i've got to make more of an effort to see them. or i'll regret it. i just know it.
i saw winnie the pooh. it was such a short story but it was cute. a lot of my childhood came back and i even knew some of the songs.
afterwards j & i went to subway. the subway we went to had couches and a television and coincidentally, the yankee vs white sox game. so we watched that for a little bit.
and let's just say
tonight was simple.
but so complex.
it was fun.
i saw winnie the pooh. it was such a short story but it was cute. a lot of my childhood came back and i even knew some of the songs.
afterwards j & i went to subway. the subway we went to had couches and a television and coincidentally, the yankee vs white sox game. so we watched that for a little bit.
and let's just say
tonight was simple.
but so complex.
it was fun.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
day 49
i'm sitting here watching foodnetwork.
today was a boring day of work.
i had the hot seat today. and took over two other tables.
but i got to sit in a good seat with cushions.
it was slow at first but then it turned easier.
i'm looking forward to getting out of work.
it's a love hate relationships with some kids.
my mother is playing mahjong right now. again.
my cousins are downstairs running around.
i'm downloading pll nows.
possibly going to take a shower soon.
bye!
today was a boring day of work.
i had the hot seat today. and took over two other tables.
but i got to sit in a good seat with cushions.
it was slow at first but then it turned easier.
i'm looking forward to getting out of work.
it's a love hate relationships with some kids.
my mother is playing mahjong right now. again.
my cousins are downstairs running around.
i'm downloading pll nows.
possibly going to take a shower soon.
bye!
Monday, August 1, 2011
day 48: picnic slash snow storm
i had one of the best days ever today. well dates. today j and i went to a park out on the island. we found a spot under the trees and laid our blanket there. we had a cute little lunch and listened to the playlist that i made. and we cuddled and did so many couple-esque things even though we're not technically a couple yet. it was really nice. we spent about 6 hours at the park and two hours just to get there and back. by the time we came back, we heard word from j's blackberry that hail started hitting the town. the sizes varied from golf ball sized to baseball sized and we even saw pictures on facebook of ruined wind shields and windows. it wasn't till we got home when we saw some of the broken cars ourselves.
the funny thing was, while we were in the park, we got slightly rained on. the tree we were under protected us mostly from the rain but it wasn't as drastic as the storm at home.
and that's about it
nothing else to update on
till tomorrow
xx
the funny thing was, while we were in the park, we got slightly rained on. the tree we were under protected us mostly from the rain but it wasn't as drastic as the storm at home.
and that's about it
nothing else to update on
till tomorrow
xx
Sunday, July 31, 2011
day 47: college
like hundreds and hundreds of other kids, i will be attending college in the near fall. if anything, (besides the precollege stress of financial aid and essay writing etc), that pisses me more about precollege, is the way people react to the choice of the school that i will be going to. especially with family or with neighbors. it's near august and i will be going to college in less than a month and people are still nagging me about what college i should have gone to and which college i should have applied to. people are doubting my choice of my major and that pisses me off terribly. sure, i'm young. sure, i don't know what's going to happen in the future but this is my life. at most, the only people who are allowed to nag about what's going to happen are my parents; not my aunts, uncles, and especially not my neighbors. every time my neighbor comes over, he always brings up college. he always tells me why i didn't apply to more state schools. he keeps telling me that i should have gone to farmingdale or nyit. i don't know why i didn't say anything but farmingdale state college doesnt' have civil engineering. i looked at all the suny schools that had civil engineering and farmingdale wasn't on the list. and while farmingdale and nyit are great schools, i worked hard during my junior year to get the sat score that i got. nyu poly was probably a reach school. it was the only school (besides cooper but i mean no one gets into cooper) that i thought i couldn't get into. and when i got into nyu poly, you can bet i was excited.
i don't think people understand the possibilities of me going to nyu poly. while it is not yet completely part of the new york university chain, by the time i graduate, it will be. and i will be graduating with a new york university diploma.
nonetheless the opportunities i can get. i know people say that undergraduate year doesn't really matter but it sort of does. people are selective with what kind of schools people go to.
and i think people are doubtful of the work i can put into. yeah nyu poly will be hard and i understand that. i know what i got myself into. engineering school in general isn't exactly a stroll in the park. nonetheless nyu poly holds the 8th highest paying salaries with bachelor's degrees. in. the. nation.
nonetheless, there will always be people getting in the way of where you want to go. it's up to you to stomp over them and show them what you can achieve. with. or without their help.
i don't think people understand the possibilities of me going to nyu poly. while it is not yet completely part of the new york university chain, by the time i graduate, it will be. and i will be graduating with a new york university diploma.
nonetheless the opportunities i can get. i know people say that undergraduate year doesn't really matter but it sort of does. people are selective with what kind of schools people go to.
and i think people are doubtful of the work i can put into. yeah nyu poly will be hard and i understand that. i know what i got myself into. engineering school in general isn't exactly a stroll in the park. nonetheless nyu poly holds the 8th highest paying salaries with bachelor's degrees. in. the. nation.
nonetheless, there will always be people getting in the way of where you want to go. it's up to you to stomp over them and show them what you can achieve. with. or without their help.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
day 46
i got called to work early this saturday morning. the only reason why i go on saturdays is because i'm able to increase my paycheck by a little bit and it makes me feel better when i check how much i get paid by the end of two weeks.
by the time i got home, my mother got into a small argument as we were trying to get tickets for washington, d.c. she claimed i had no patience. i was trying to work with the website to get it to work. and all i said was a giant sigh (meant for the website) and my mother goes off on me and how i have no patience. and i didn't even bother fighting back because it wasn't even worth it. so, i'm just not going to help my mother get tickets. i want to go to washington, d.c. but honestly, i don't want to go with my family. my parents are getting old and they don't want to walk a lot. and nonetheless, they cheap out on anything fun and my siblings are old enough to walk around but they are too young to understand anything. so if my mother asks me to get tickets tomorrow, i'm just going to tell her to get my sister to help her because i apparently have no patience and then watch, all hell will break lose and then i will get an attitude for having an attitude when i didn't have an attitude in the first place.
then after that, i went up to my room and took a two hour nap. waking up at 8:30 am in the morning is so hard to do.
then j came over to hang out with my brother and i. i have to practice on my video gaming skills because i kept losing. and i basically only won to pure luck. but it was nice having him around just to chill. but i think my mother is on to something even though there wasn't anything going on. i showed j my room and my mother told me that i shouldn't have a boy in my room. -_-. when the door was clearly open and. uch. and i couldn't even just chill with j either especially since my brother was just being a butt a whole time. i think my brother has grown into the annoying 10-year old brother and i want to beat him up every time he opens his mouth sort of stage. uch. he'll finally realize it when i leave for college. it won't be the same for him.
so i'm off to do stuff.
bye!
by the time i got home, my mother got into a small argument as we were trying to get tickets for washington, d.c. she claimed i had no patience. i was trying to work with the website to get it to work. and all i said was a giant sigh (meant for the website) and my mother goes off on me and how i have no patience. and i didn't even bother fighting back because it wasn't even worth it. so, i'm just not going to help my mother get tickets. i want to go to washington, d.c. but honestly, i don't want to go with my family. my parents are getting old and they don't want to walk a lot. and nonetheless, they cheap out on anything fun and my siblings are old enough to walk around but they are too young to understand anything. so if my mother asks me to get tickets tomorrow, i'm just going to tell her to get my sister to help her because i apparently have no patience and then watch, all hell will break lose and then i will get an attitude for having an attitude when i didn't have an attitude in the first place.
then after that, i went up to my room and took a two hour nap. waking up at 8:30 am in the morning is so hard to do.
then j came over to hang out with my brother and i. i have to practice on my video gaming skills because i kept losing. and i basically only won to pure luck. but it was nice having him around just to chill. but i think my mother is on to something even though there wasn't anything going on. i showed j my room and my mother told me that i shouldn't have a boy in my room. -_-. when the door was clearly open and. uch. and i couldn't even just chill with j either especially since my brother was just being a butt a whole time. i think my brother has grown into the annoying 10-year old brother and i want to beat him up every time he opens his mouth sort of stage. uch. he'll finally realize it when i leave for college. it won't be the same for him.
so i'm off to do stuff.
bye!
Friday, July 29, 2011
day 45: horrible bosses
today i had a reunited meeting with my trap.
we went to the movies
and saw horrible bosses.
and it was a guy movie to be honest.
oh wells. it was nice.
and then we went to the new chipotle.
it was alright.
i have nothing else to say.
we went to the movies
and saw horrible bosses.
and it was a guy movie to be honest.
oh wells. it was nice.
and then we went to the new chipotle.
it was alright.
i have nothing else to say.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
day 44
i've never realized how much i hated kids until... today at work. another day in which my day revolved just around kumon. i've decided not to work there during the school year only because it wasn't worth it.
but after work when i was bumming and watching sex and the city, i was kidnapped by j and t who i haven't seen in so long.
and learned some college stuff.
and that's it.
the end.
bye
but after work when i was bumming and watching sex and the city, i was kidnapped by j and t who i haven't seen in so long.
and learned some college stuff.
and that's it.
the end.
bye
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
day 43
i'm laying down in my bed while on the laptop. and it's probably the worst position for me for my back and my neck, but as of right now, i'm too tired to care. it's 5:21 pm in the evening and all my friends are out. either they're out on dates or with family or just even at home like i am, every one is doing their own thing. my plans for the evening have been canceled and i am left here blogging. but i do have plans tonight; plans that i am quite excited about.
these last few days i've been thinking about my heart. i've always had a problem with letting people in. and i guess i'm constantly guarded. i know it's not good for me but no matter how hard i try and no matter how much i want to let them inside my walls, i always have a gun in my pocket. i guess i've just been scarred and scared of what can happen. and then i think of the time left i have in town. i have approximately a month left here are home. am i going to risk not doing what my heart desires only because of time and school? as much as i do want to knock my walls down, i also don't want to ruin a friendship. and then there is living with the what if's in my head. i don't want to live my life through that.
i guess i have to remind myself that i have to do this for myself and not for anyone else; no matter what people say.
edit: 2:19 am
i just had one of the best nights of my life. (:
these last few days i've been thinking about my heart. i've always had a problem with letting people in. and i guess i'm constantly guarded. i know it's not good for me but no matter how hard i try and no matter how much i want to let them inside my walls, i always have a gun in my pocket. i guess i've just been scarred and scared of what can happen. and then i think of the time left i have in town. i have approximately a month left here are home. am i going to risk not doing what my heart desires only because of time and school? as much as i do want to knock my walls down, i also don't want to ruin a friendship. and then there is living with the what if's in my head. i don't want to live my life through that.
i guess i have to remind myself that i have to do this for myself and not for anyone else; no matter what people say.
edit: 2:19 am
i just had one of the best nights of my life. (:
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
day 42
all in all, i'm glad my friends and i had that slumber party. it was a hang out well needed.
but there was just this one kid i couldn't get off my mind.
i don't really have much to say.
except that i went to work today after the slumber party.
it seemed to go really slow.
and all i feel like doing is taking a shower, and watching more sex and the city.
you know? i might just do that (:
toodles
but there was just this one kid i couldn't get off my mind.
i don't really have much to say.
except that i went to work today after the slumber party.
it seemed to go really slow.
and all i feel like doing is taking a shower, and watching more sex and the city.
you know? i might just do that (:
toodles
day 41
i am sleeping in linda's bed. i'll blog tomorrow.
BYE
edit: 1:13 PM the next day:
sadly, i sort of forgot to blog until last night when i was just about to get some rest from the sleepover i was at. i had to kick b off her computer just to write those three sentences you see above. ^^ so technically i did blog. i just didn't blog enough.
i spent the day yesterday getting ready for this sleepover and talking to j. and i did so from the moment i woke up until i had to leave. so i was just doing two things for like about... six hours. then i got to l's house with r and b and we started the sleepover madness. we did some nose pore strip things that i've been meaning to try for the longest time and we did the typical baking. we bought a special brownie mix called mississippi mud brownies and we used a smore icing to put it on top. nonetheless, it was DELICIOUS. so much chocolate in one bite and there were marshmallows and it was just... a chocolate-gasm in my mouth. then basically we just hung around in l's room and some people did their nails, some people were on the computer.
nonetheless it was a good night. but the slumber party craziness have seemed to just lessen down. i guess we're just getting too old. and staying up isn't as easy as it was a couple of years ago. i'm glad we had this. i'm glad the girls were able to hang around together one last time before college. it was a moment to remember. especially since many of us will be soon going our different ways in a couple of weeks. i just need a day with my boys and then another day where every one can meet up at the same time.
just one more month. four weeks. twenty eight days.
then we're all splitting and moving on and traveling down different paths.
till then, i'm going to wait for l's mom to get chicken and rice for us (:
and then i'm headed off to work.
bye!
BYE
edit: 1:13 PM the next day:
sadly, i sort of forgot to blog until last night when i was just about to get some rest from the sleepover i was at. i had to kick b off her computer just to write those three sentences you see above. ^^ so technically i did blog. i just didn't blog enough.
i spent the day yesterday getting ready for this sleepover and talking to j. and i did so from the moment i woke up until i had to leave. so i was just doing two things for like about... six hours. then i got to l's house with r and b and we started the sleepover madness. we did some nose pore strip things that i've been meaning to try for the longest time and we did the typical baking. we bought a special brownie mix called mississippi mud brownies and we used a smore icing to put it on top. nonetheless, it was DELICIOUS. so much chocolate in one bite and there were marshmallows and it was just... a chocolate-gasm in my mouth. then basically we just hung around in l's room and some people did their nails, some people were on the computer.
nonetheless it was a good night. but the slumber party craziness have seemed to just lessen down. i guess we're just getting too old. and staying up isn't as easy as it was a couple of years ago. i'm glad we had this. i'm glad the girls were able to hang around together one last time before college. it was a moment to remember. especially since many of us will be soon going our different ways in a couple of weeks. i just need a day with my boys and then another day where every one can meet up at the same time.
just one more month. four weeks. twenty eight days.
then we're all splitting and moving on and traveling down different paths.
till then, i'm going to wait for l's mom to get chicken and rice for us (:
and then i'm headed off to work.
bye!
Sunday, July 24, 2011
post 40
i have an addiction. not with food. not with boys. not with internet (okay yes with internet but that's not the point of this right now). i have an addiction with nailpolish. my god. i've been constantly putting it on and taking it off and repeating with a new color for weeks now. but i've always done that.
today was a day in which i spent the day home. i've been sitting in my pjs all day. i stayed in bed and watch sex and the city for my seventy two minutes. and then when megavideo's seventy two minutes were up, i started watching a cinderella story because i wanted to see it. i miss hilary duff. i remember when i was younger, any movie with hilary duff, lindsay lohan, and amanda bynes was a definite movie to watch. and now they're all either married, in jail, or so called "retired". i don't think the movies now a days can compare to the movies made then. now the movies are so washed up and typical and so expected.
i can't think of anything to write. bye!
today was a day in which i spent the day home. i've been sitting in my pjs all day. i stayed in bed and watch sex and the city for my seventy two minutes. and then when megavideo's seventy two minutes were up, i started watching a cinderella story because i wanted to see it. i miss hilary duff. i remember when i was younger, any movie with hilary duff, lindsay lohan, and amanda bynes was a definite movie to watch. and now they're all either married, in jail, or so called "retired". i don't think the movies now a days can compare to the movies made then. now the movies are so washed up and typical and so expected.
i can't think of anything to write. bye!
Saturday, July 23, 2011
day 39
i've been recently watching more and more episodes of sex and the city. it is one of the only things i end up doing when i simply have nothing else to do. and well, i wish i could write like carrie bradshaw. i remember i used to have so much inspiration and now i just don't have anything. i barely sketch anymore. i barely paint any more. i barely have any more creative sensibility.
i'm sitting on my kitchen island with my headphones on. my mother and her best friend are chatting in front of me but i don't hear a word they're saying. i think that's the only reason why my mother trusts me and my best girlfriends so much. because she understands. she understands that there is necessary girl time and talking and chatting and doing hairs and doing nails. she understands that while it is great to have a billion friends, it's always great to have that one friend in which you can tell anything to no matter how severe the situation is.
a best friend is there to always smack the reality back into your life no matter what happens. no matter happens, they're always there for you; whether you're crying from a broken heart or when you're moaning from your period or when you can barely contain your laughter. they're always there.
i'm blessed that i have so many people in my life that i'm able to call best friends. not only do i have a great best girlfriend, i have many of them. and best boy friends along with it when i have to deal with things less emotional and more dead on situations.
but when is appropriate to listen to yourself rather than your friends? your friends have an outside watch on you. they can listen to every word you say and watch everything you do. but do they really know what's right for you? do they really know what's going on in your head? there's only some part of the story that they know.
so whether this is a guilt factor or not, i don't know.
and whether this is worth hiding from them, i don't know.
i'm just afraid of what they're going to say.
because this isn't the girl they know of.
i'm sitting on my kitchen island with my headphones on. my mother and her best friend are chatting in front of me but i don't hear a word they're saying. i think that's the only reason why my mother trusts me and my best girlfriends so much. because she understands. she understands that there is necessary girl time and talking and chatting and doing hairs and doing nails. she understands that while it is great to have a billion friends, it's always great to have that one friend in which you can tell anything to no matter how severe the situation is.
a best friend is there to always smack the reality back into your life no matter what happens. no matter happens, they're always there for you; whether you're crying from a broken heart or when you're moaning from your period or when you can barely contain your laughter. they're always there.
i'm blessed that i have so many people in my life that i'm able to call best friends. not only do i have a great best girlfriend, i have many of them. and best boy friends along with it when i have to deal with things less emotional and more dead on situations.
but when is appropriate to listen to yourself rather than your friends? your friends have an outside watch on you. they can listen to every word you say and watch everything you do. but do they really know what's right for you? do they really know what's going on in your head? there's only some part of the story that they know.
so whether this is a guilt factor or not, i don't know.
and whether this is worth hiding from them, i don't know.
i'm just afraid of what they're going to say.
because this isn't the girl they know of.
Friday, July 22, 2011
day 38
i haven't stepped outside yet but today is supposed to be one of the hottest days ever. ironically, warped tour is tomorrow and i'm glad i'm not going because it will be scorching hot like it was last year. and last year was not too fun with the heat i can tell you that. i'm blogging now because i know later i'm not going to have much time. my girls are coming over in a little bit and we're going to play some video games and giggle and do female stuff. and then later i'm going out.
i've come to realization that sometimes, i do think too much. i think about the consequences a little too harshly. but then when it's the times i do need to think just a little extra, i just throw it over my shoulder.
i can't think of anything else to write.
as usual.
here's to tonight.
edit: 1:29 am
so i can't write much.
but i feel so good.
i did the right thing.
xx
i've come to realization that sometimes, i do think too much. i think about the consequences a little too harshly. but then when it's the times i do need to think just a little extra, i just throw it over my shoulder.
i can't think of anything else to write.
as usual.
here's to tonight.
edit: 1:29 am
so i can't write much.
but i feel so good.
i did the right thing.
xx
Thursday, July 21, 2011
day 37
what are we doing? i don't get where we are. i told myself i wouldn't. i told myself i wasn't going to get into the stupid love mess again. i tried so hard last night to reject every single move you made. it was so. fucking. hard. because the more you tried, the more i just wanted to give in. the more you moved in closer the more i just wanted to get closer to you. but i know you're terrible for me. out of all the boys, you'd just become addictive to me, as you are already. i want us to be friends. do i? i do. i think i do. i keep telling myself i do. if i didn't want to be more than friends, i would have gave in to you already wouldn't i? and if you wanted to be more than friends, you would have just kissed me even though i dodged the bullet every single time. we were so straight forward last night. i liked that. i liked how i had the guts to ask you sort of where we were even though the answers you gave me answered nothing but everything at the same time.
i'm just tired of you pulling the moves on me. because single time i feel like you've pulled this with her too. and that i'm not special at all. but you tell me i am. and you tell me a billion other things that can make my heart soar but my walls are built up high.
i'm guarded.
it's going to take a little more than pulling me closer to give in.
even though i badly want to give up.
badly.
i'm just tired of you pulling the moves on me. because single time i feel like you've pulled this with her too. and that i'm not special at all. but you tell me i am. and you tell me a billion other things that can make my heart soar but my walls are built up high.
i'm guarded.
it's going to take a little more than pulling me closer to give in.
even though i badly want to give up.
badly.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
day 36
Right now, I'm in the car with j as we speak. We're roaming around town as we usually do. I had breakfasT with the emo pinatas at an early hour of 9 and then crashedthe moment I got home. Then I got crunk at m's house. And when I say crunk, I mean CRUNK. And it was amazingly fun. It was worth it. It was worth letting lose. And the night continues as I'm typing this on j's blackberry. So this is a shorT blog but it's better than nothing. Toodles.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
day 35: respect
so while i wait for my today's episode of pretty little liars to completely finish downloading, here i am with my fingers ready to type about what i do today.
basically all i did today:
kumon. which was cute. i have some students who are growing on me and it's nice. but i think by the time i leave near august, i'm going to miss them terribly.
every night before i go to sleep, i always think of the best things to write of. i always think of topics of things that i used to write about from my previous blogs.
on the way to work today, i was thinking about the way things changed from january to now. the people in my life totally changed. instead of having one guy best friend, i now have about... four. which has it's pros and cons in it's ways. i mean. that's how i work. besides my super best girl friend, i usually barely tell any secrets to anyone else. i mean i rant about my life, but those are rarely any secrets. if any thing, i tell bits and pieces to everyone. i guess sometimes i treat my friends like horcruxes. which is sad because i shouldn't. but i've had way too many people come and go in my life and i shouldn't risk it.
recently, i've also had a self identification evaluation if you will. i was thinking about things that make me different from other people. girls in general but other people. i've been working myself up on finding ways on how to love myself cause frankly, i don't think my self esteem is up to a healthy level. i thought about the way i act. i guess in a way i am a lady. i respect myself. i respect my body. i respect others. i listen and talk. and i am gentle at times. but along those lines, i also am a very... how do i say this. i am fierce in a way. i will stand up for what i believe in. i am determined.
unlike other girls. who fucking throw their bodies onto guys and *gag* you get the picture.
basically, i'm not a slut.
and i'm fucking proud of it.
and in that way, i guess i can say i have class.
no, i know i can say that i have class.
and that i have respect for myself.
basically all i did today:
kumon. which was cute. i have some students who are growing on me and it's nice. but i think by the time i leave near august, i'm going to miss them terribly.
every night before i go to sleep, i always think of the best things to write of. i always think of topics of things that i used to write about from my previous blogs.
on the way to work today, i was thinking about the way things changed from january to now. the people in my life totally changed. instead of having one guy best friend, i now have about... four. which has it's pros and cons in it's ways. i mean. that's how i work. besides my super best girl friend, i usually barely tell any secrets to anyone else. i mean i rant about my life, but those are rarely any secrets. if any thing, i tell bits and pieces to everyone. i guess sometimes i treat my friends like horcruxes. which is sad because i shouldn't. but i've had way too many people come and go in my life and i shouldn't risk it.
recently, i've also had a self identification evaluation if you will. i was thinking about things that make me different from other people. girls in general but other people. i've been working myself up on finding ways on how to love myself cause frankly, i don't think my self esteem is up to a healthy level. i thought about the way i act. i guess in a way i am a lady. i respect myself. i respect my body. i respect others. i listen and talk. and i am gentle at times. but along those lines, i also am a very... how do i say this. i am fierce in a way. i will stand up for what i believe in. i am determined.
unlike other girls. who fucking throw their bodies onto guys and *gag* you get the picture.
basically, i'm not a slut.
and i'm fucking proud of it.
and in that way, i guess i can say i have class.
no, i know i can say that i have class.
and that i have respect for myself.
Monday, July 18, 2011
day 34
i went to the mall with h.
it was nice.
the bus driver was very interesting.
it was like we were in a coach bus.
then i met up with b & r.
it was nice.
had some nice giggles.
but it wasn't long enough.
i was told to keep a secret today.
and i guess it broke a little bit of me.
it was nice.
the bus driver was very interesting.
it was like we were in a coach bus.
then i met up with b & r.
it was nice.
had some nice giggles.
but it wasn't long enough.
i was told to keep a secret today.
and i guess it broke a little bit of me.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
day 33
i know it's fairly early in the day. it's nearly 6:20 pm. but i decided since i have nothing to do right now that i'd blog for the time being.
i didn't do anything today, except go out with my dad and sister to pick up some school supplies. i got a nifty (does anyone say nifty anymore?) little white erase board that was only a dollar. booyeh. good stuff. i spotted d and his little brothers at staples and then walgreens after.
today was basically another day spent mostly indoors.
my mom made hamburgers today. i ate three of them right after another. talk about hungry. :/
i played with my makeup today too.
i used my urban decay feminine pallet. i just did the eyes though. and it turned out really nice. i think i'm going to start playing with my eye makeup more often now.
there's a lot of things recently that's been going on in my mind. regardless of what anyone says, i honestly don't know what to do. there's a boy that's been in my life this past year and i do enjoy his company a lot. it's just that recently, i don't know where we stand in our friendship. i don't know whether he wants to be just more than friends or if he's just joking about relationships. do boys even like to joke about relationships? as of right now, i know that i want to just stay friends. summer is half gone. i'm not going to throw myself into a relationship that'll only last a little more than a month. but then again, when was the last time i had a relationship that was worth lasting longer than a month. i enjoy his company because well. he treats me right. he treats me with respect. and he listens to me. and he's a gentleman. but what makes him different from the other gentleman i've dated? nothing. just like the other guys, they think they know me but they don't know at all... yeah i guess he's not worth it. but i do enjoy his company. i don't want to lose him as a friend. he's become someone i could really depend on.
now to see if he's just like the other guys. is he going to leave when i need him the most?
i didn't do anything today, except go out with my dad and sister to pick up some school supplies. i got a nifty (does anyone say nifty anymore?) little white erase board that was only a dollar. booyeh. good stuff. i spotted d and his little brothers at staples and then walgreens after.
today was basically another day spent mostly indoors.
my mom made hamburgers today. i ate three of them right after another. talk about hungry. :/
i played with my makeup today too.
i used my urban decay feminine pallet. i just did the eyes though. and it turned out really nice. i think i'm going to start playing with my eye makeup more often now.
there's a lot of things recently that's been going on in my mind. regardless of what anyone says, i honestly don't know what to do. there's a boy that's been in my life this past year and i do enjoy his company a lot. it's just that recently, i don't know where we stand in our friendship. i don't know whether he wants to be just more than friends or if he's just joking about relationships. do boys even like to joke about relationships? as of right now, i know that i want to just stay friends. summer is half gone. i'm not going to throw myself into a relationship that'll only last a little more than a month. but then again, when was the last time i had a relationship that was worth lasting longer than a month. i enjoy his company because well. he treats me right. he treats me with respect. and he listens to me. and he's a gentleman. but what makes him different from the other gentleman i've dated? nothing. just like the other guys, they think they know me but they don't know at all... yeah i guess he's not worth it. but i do enjoy his company. i don't want to lose him as a friend. he's become someone i could really depend on.
now to see if he's just like the other guys. is he going to leave when i need him the most?
Saturday, July 16, 2011
day 32
perhaps today was meant to be like this. i went early for work. i'm exhausted. waking up at 8:30 in the morning is not pleasant when you're so used to sleeping way past noon.
and then afterwards i stayed home all day all tired-like. on the way from work, i saw the hair salon that did feathers and they had a lot more variety. but, i'm glad my friends and i acquired the fad way before it got out.
and i even took a nap today. i ate a lot of chocolate things. like chocolate covered strawberries and my mother made home made chocolate chip cookies.
and i took a nap today.
and watched sex and the city.
and basically i did nothing. except stay inside.
and i wore my feather cuff today.
yup. besides that. nothing new.
goodbye.
and then afterwards i stayed home all day all tired-like. on the way from work, i saw the hair salon that did feathers and they had a lot more variety. but, i'm glad my friends and i acquired the fad way before it got out.
and i even took a nap today. i ate a lot of chocolate things. like chocolate covered strawberries and my mother made home made chocolate chip cookies.
and i took a nap today.
and watched sex and the city.
and basically i did nothing. except stay inside.
and i wore my feather cuff today.
yup. besides that. nothing new.
goodbye.
Friday, July 15, 2011
day 31
so i successfully saw harry potter and the deathly hallows part two at midnight. and can i just say...
that the movie..
was amazing.
it followed a majority of the book. it was action packed. there were a few things that were a little iffy but those were the minor details which really could be easily pushed aside. the movie was great. i loved it. and i will be definitely seeing it again in the theatres.
not only did i successfully see the movie, i also grabbed myself a pair of harry potter 3d glasses. my friends and i saw the 2d movie but the ticket collector guy at the front was giving them to the people who were seeing 3d movies but he gave them to the girls and i but not really to the boys.
over all, the night was a great night. i had a little adventure with r, n, j and a and it was just so worth it. then r and n slept over and it was just nice having that memory to share with them.
and then later that day i went out with h. and we had a lovely conversation about life.
i missed that. i missed him. it was two weeks without having him around and it was so nice to have him back. now i just need all my brothers back here with me.
all i know is that tonight, i'm going to have a great sleep. because i need it.
till then! xx
that the movie..
was amazing.
it followed a majority of the book. it was action packed. there were a few things that were a little iffy but those were the minor details which really could be easily pushed aside. the movie was great. i loved it. and i will be definitely seeing it again in the theatres.
not only did i successfully see the movie, i also grabbed myself a pair of harry potter 3d glasses. my friends and i saw the 2d movie but the ticket collector guy at the front was giving them to the people who were seeing 3d movies but he gave them to the girls and i but not really to the boys.
over all, the night was a great night. i had a little adventure with r, n, j and a and it was just so worth it. then r and n slept over and it was just nice having that memory to share with them.
and then later that day i went out with h. and we had a lovely conversation about life.
i missed that. i missed him. it was two weeks without having him around and it was so nice to have him back. now i just need all my brothers back here with me.
all i know is that tonight, i'm going to have a great sleep. because i need it.
till then! xx
Thursday, July 14, 2011
day 30: midnight premiere
there is only one reason why i am blogging so early in the day. right now it is 1:19 pm in the day and i guess fairly, my day just started. but i do have a good excuse. tonight will be the night that i have been looking forward to for years. tonight is the midnight premiere of harry potter and the deathly hallows. not only is this the last movie of the series but considering this is my favorite book and part 2 is where all the juicy stuff is, i just can't wait. i've been waiting for this movie for years. it just seemed just like yesterday when the book first came out three or four years ago and now finally, the movie is here. it's surreal. it's almost over.
the plan is for r and i to go to work and after we're done, we're going to go out to dinner and then head straight for the theatre. yeah we're going to be there a smidge early but so is a lot of other people. we're going to wait in line for a couple hours until eleven-ish or nearly midnight. and we'll meet j, a and n there probably and i just can't wait. i hope everything runs smoothly. and i hope r and i get there early enough to get great seats. and i hope that nothing goes wrong with the tickets and i just hope things go well.
this is not only my first time seeing harry potter at midnight, but it was also my last time seeing harry potter at midnight. mind you, i'm probably going to see the movie a couple more times especially if it's great. i can't wait.
and basically the moral of this blog post is that i'm writing early because essentially tonight, i won't be home to blog.
and the girls will be sleeping over tonight.
so here's to tonight.
tonight is where it all ends.
the plan is for r and i to go to work and after we're done, we're going to go out to dinner and then head straight for the theatre. yeah we're going to be there a smidge early but so is a lot of other people. we're going to wait in line for a couple hours until eleven-ish or nearly midnight. and we'll meet j, a and n there probably and i just can't wait. i hope everything runs smoothly. and i hope r and i get there early enough to get great seats. and i hope that nothing goes wrong with the tickets and i just hope things go well.
this is not only my first time seeing harry potter at midnight, but it was also my last time seeing harry potter at midnight. mind you, i'm probably going to see the movie a couple more times especially if it's great. i can't wait.
and basically the moral of this blog post is that i'm writing early because essentially tonight, i won't be home to blog.
and the girls will be sleeping over tonight.
so here's to tonight.
tonight is where it all ends.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
day 29: surprise birthday party
today my day consisted of helping to run s's birthday smoothly as today for one of the first times ever, i was the wingman and didn't plan much.
i did nothing else except for watch a webinar from my college that i missed on monday and learned about registering for my college classes. i have five classes that i have to sign up for. i hope i don't screw anything up.
we went to la parma and the plan was for everyone to meet us there. s had no clue and we were running a little bit late, but that was even better for the plan. he didn't expect it until he walked in and saw everyone sitting down at a table together. he was almost about to tear and nothing but pure happiness was in his eyes.
we ate some italian food and it was good.
i'm so glad we got to do this for s. he deserves it out of all the people i know. his heart is so big and he only has good intentions for everyone.
and then i went out with j for the rest of the night and did our typical car driving, talking, and singing to music. for some reason, tonight he was very... energetic. must have been all that italian food.
until tomorrow afternoon.
xx
i did nothing else except for watch a webinar from my college that i missed on monday and learned about registering for my college classes. i have five classes that i have to sign up for. i hope i don't screw anything up.
we went to la parma and the plan was for everyone to meet us there. s had no clue and we were running a little bit late, but that was even better for the plan. he didn't expect it until he walked in and saw everyone sitting down at a table together. he was almost about to tear and nothing but pure happiness was in his eyes.
we ate some italian food and it was good.
i'm so glad we got to do this for s. he deserves it out of all the people i know. his heart is so big and he only has good intentions for everyone.
and then i went out with j for the rest of the night and did our typical car driving, talking, and singing to music. for some reason, tonight he was very... energetic. must have been all that italian food.
until tomorrow afternoon.
xx
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
day 28
perhaps the only thing i wanted to do was to stay in bed all day and sleep. i was tired and dizzy and i just didn't want to do anything.
i ended up going to work and dealing with it. it wasn't until halfway through work when the drugs started kicking in and i felt normal-esque [or as close to it i can get].
and that was about it.
i did nothing else.
except paint my nails a new color.
i am now sporting a royal blue color.
that is all.
i ended up going to work and dealing with it. it wasn't until halfway through work when the drugs started kicking in and i felt normal-esque [or as close to it i can get].
and that was about it.
i did nothing else.
except paint my nails a new color.
i am now sporting a royal blue color.
that is all.
Monday, July 11, 2011
day 27: red carpet premiere
perhaps today was one of the most impacting days of my life. not perhaps. it is. today was the day that my ten years of harry potter dreaming just exploded. i got to be in the vicinity of daniel radcliff [harry potter], rupert grint [ronald weasley], emma watson [hermoine granger], alan rickman [severus snape], tom felton [draco malfoy], matthew lewis [neville longbottom] and many more. i breathed the same air as these people did. r, j, and i stood outside in the heat of 98F waiting for these people. these people are my heroes and my inspiration. they make me believe in magic and that there is so much more to life. there is imagination in this world after all.
a lot of people got sick. and it was literally body to body. it reminded me of the warped tour days except worse. people were crying and some were sick. but the strongest stuck out till the end. i got some pictures but they're terrible. i didn't get any autographs. tom felton was about five people away from me when he turned around and went back to the red carpet. it broke my heart.
the nyc premiere was planned horribly. the people that camped out for days didn't get first priority. and it was just an entire mess. and the people that were even outside didn't have a good view. i wonder if this is how it was in the london premiere. but their square was bigger. all we had was a measly lincoln center.
but it's better than nothing
i can officially say that i attended my first and last harry potter red carpet premiere.
and it was worth ever little bit of it.
a lot of people got sick. and it was literally body to body. it reminded me of the warped tour days except worse. people were crying and some were sick. but the strongest stuck out till the end. i got some pictures but they're terrible. i didn't get any autographs. tom felton was about five people away from me when he turned around and went back to the red carpet. it broke my heart.
the nyc premiere was planned horribly. the people that camped out for days didn't get first priority. and it was just an entire mess. and the people that were even outside didn't have a good view. i wonder if this is how it was in the london premiere. but their square was bigger. all we had was a measly lincoln center.
but it's better than nothing
i can officially say that i attended my first and last harry potter red carpet premiere.
and it was worth ever little bit of it.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
day 26: the beach
my day basically revolved around the beach. the first place that i went when i woke up? well. the bathroom. cause i was feeling sort of sick. but i felt better and then got ready and headed to the beach.
all i did was tan today. and i did get tan. there were no clouds in the sky at all and i got some serious sun damage. sadly, i'm going out in the sun again tomorrow which is not good for my skin at all but for tanning purposes.
it was a good five hours sitting on the beach hanging with j. we had a lot of talking and making fun of each other. no worries whatsoever. except for one. which has been bugging me all week. because i don't know where he is in the world. and whether he's alright or not. the boys keep telling me that he's okay but, i'm still worried. i just want him to come home.
but the moral of the story is
even doing nothing on the beach can make you feel so tired.
tomorrow's a big day! harry potter red carpet!
all i did was tan today. and i did get tan. there were no clouds in the sky at all and i got some serious sun damage. sadly, i'm going out in the sun again tomorrow which is not good for my skin at all but for tanning purposes.
it was a good five hours sitting on the beach hanging with j. we had a lot of talking and making fun of each other. no worries whatsoever. except for one. which has been bugging me all week. because i don't know where he is in the world. and whether he's alright or not. the boys keep telling me that he's okay but, i'm still worried. i just want him to come home.
but the moral of the story is
even doing nothing on the beach can make you feel so tired.
tomorrow's a big day! harry potter red carpet!
Saturday, July 9, 2011
day 24: we the kings
i was laying in bed, so ready to get my dreams on, when i remembered i didn't blog for the day.
today was a very unexpected day. all i had planned to do was to attend j's beerbq.
however, i saw that travis clark (lead singer of the band we the kings) posted on his twitter that he was going to be playing at r mall today for free! so i gathered up my friends last minute and then we went to see we the kings. they came out later than expected. of course all the hours added up together especially since we came a couple hours earlier and they came an hour and a half later than expected but that's okay. i breathed the same air as the band, we the kings, for the second time in my life. every time i see we the kings, i can't help but think that he knows charles trippy (a youtube vlogger, a very famous one i might add). they grew up together in talahassee, florida. it's such a small world. and now the both of them are so successful, it's insane.
after that i dropped by j's bbq, even though no one else wanted to go. but some people tagged along for a bite and then left. i stayed a little bit longer. i stayed sober for the night because i knew i was going home soon. and i wasn't really comfortable with the crowd. some people were friendlier than expected. even people i've been a total jerk to over the school year. i guess it's just the high school angst. everything seems so different. and adult like. and grudge free.
and then my night ended off fairly early. i've been coming home earlier recently. especially since my dad has been on vacation and isn't working for a couple of weeks. i guess i feel bad. my father told my mother that i was spoiled. in a sense, i can see that. my mother does spoil me sometimes. but she realizes that i need to live and have fun. but at the same time, i haven't been home for dinner in days. i keep seeing my friends. i guess i should stay home more often. i guess i feel a bit guilty. that even though this is my last summer with my friends, it is my last real summer with my family. but the thing is, my friends might not be here when i come back next summer... but i know my family will be.
i guess what determines who's going to be there for me in the summer is when it's time to truly see, which ones of my friends are really my family...
till tomorrow
xx
today was a very unexpected day. all i had planned to do was to attend j's beerbq.
however, i saw that travis clark (lead singer of the band we the kings) posted on his twitter that he was going to be playing at r mall today for free! so i gathered up my friends last minute and then we went to see we the kings. they came out later than expected. of course all the hours added up together especially since we came a couple hours earlier and they came an hour and a half later than expected but that's okay. i breathed the same air as the band, we the kings, for the second time in my life. every time i see we the kings, i can't help but think that he knows charles trippy (a youtube vlogger, a very famous one i might add). they grew up together in talahassee, florida. it's such a small world. and now the both of them are so successful, it's insane.
after that i dropped by j's bbq, even though no one else wanted to go. but some people tagged along for a bite and then left. i stayed a little bit longer. i stayed sober for the night because i knew i was going home soon. and i wasn't really comfortable with the crowd. some people were friendlier than expected. even people i've been a total jerk to over the school year. i guess it's just the high school angst. everything seems so different. and adult like. and grudge free.
and then my night ended off fairly early. i've been coming home earlier recently. especially since my dad has been on vacation and isn't working for a couple of weeks. i guess i feel bad. my father told my mother that i was spoiled. in a sense, i can see that. my mother does spoil me sometimes. but she realizes that i need to live and have fun. but at the same time, i haven't been home for dinner in days. i keep seeing my friends. i guess i should stay home more often. i guess i feel a bit guilty. that even though this is my last summer with my friends, it is my last real summer with my family. but the thing is, my friends might not be here when i come back next summer... but i know my family will be.
i guess what determines who's going to be there for me in the summer is when it's time to truly see, which ones of my friends are really my family...
till tomorrow
xx
Friday, July 8, 2011
day 24: hair cut
the majority of my day was spent looking forward to my hair cut and hair dye.
i cut of two inches of my hair and of course, i came back with more than two inches cut. nonetheless, i like it. i haven't had my hair this short in ages. and i dyed my hair. the box says auburn and i was frightened, but since my hair is dark, it looks redbrown. i love it. i think i'm going to start dying my hair more colors.
i like the different looks. come fall time, i'm probably going to go dark. blue dark. perhaps thanksgiving break when i get a chance to come home and do it?
besides that things have been normal, except for a very frightening message i read when i got home.
just, wherever you are in the world right now, please be safe. come back home soon. you are a hero.
i cut of two inches of my hair and of course, i came back with more than two inches cut. nonetheless, i like it. i haven't had my hair this short in ages. and i dyed my hair. the box says auburn and i was frightened, but since my hair is dark, it looks redbrown. i love it. i think i'm going to start dying my hair more colors.
i like the different looks. come fall time, i'm probably going to go dark. blue dark. perhaps thanksgiving break when i get a chance to come home and do it?
besides that things have been normal, except for a very frightening message i read when i got home.
just, wherever you are in the world right now, please be safe. come back home soon. you are a hero.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
day 23: harry potter
i was planning to write a post about this a long time ago. but i never got the chance to.
ten years ago, when harry potter and the sorcerer's stone first came out, i remember sitting in the theater with my aunt. who knew this whole harry potter business was going to erupt. i'll always remember being in second grade reading the first few books and as the newer books started coming out, i would start reading the series all over again. and then movie after movie, i started watching them and then reading the books even more.
harry potter came into my life when i was about seven. ten years ago. i waited as i turned eleven and waited for my hogwarts letter from dumbledore to come in the mail. it never came. when i grew up, i didn't really broadcast my love for harry potter. as if kids my age ever were connected to it as i was. i don't think it was until high school where i was able to find other kids with a love for harry potter. and after that it just grew bigger and bigger. the franchise exploded and all of a sudden, every other student in school was a harry potter geek.
i haven't read the books one through six in a few years. i'm going to say two years because i remember specifically, i read the books right after another.
and it wasn't until last year in which i bought my first harry potter book. it will be my first harry potter book and it is the last of the series. harry potter and the deathly hallows was by far my favorite book. maybe because there was so much adventure and fighting and love and friendship in it. at times it was slow, especially during the middle, but at the end, it was all worth it.
i got to read about my favorite three wizards fighting evil.
i remember in 9th grade when deathly hallows came out. it was the final installment of the harry potter series. the main question was whether harry potter was going to be killed off or not. i'll try not to spoil it but in a way he was and a way he wasn't.
i saw the london premiere this morning on youtube, along with many, many other harry potter nerds that i knew and that i didn't. my blog dashboard was exploding with posts about the live premiere. not to mention, my posts were exploding too.
it's just hard to imagine that in one week my childhood will be i guess "over". i grew up with harry potter. in this last segment of the movie, harry will be gone with his hogwart years. he's going to be an adult in a sense. seventeen is wizarding legal age. as i'm seventeen, i feel attached.
i might not have gotten my hogwarts letter when i was eleven.
but i feel like i've been there my entire life.
thank you harry potter, for growing up with me.
it's not goodbye. it's never goodbye.
ten years ago, when harry potter and the sorcerer's stone first came out, i remember sitting in the theater with my aunt. who knew this whole harry potter business was going to erupt. i'll always remember being in second grade reading the first few books and as the newer books started coming out, i would start reading the series all over again. and then movie after movie, i started watching them and then reading the books even more.
harry potter came into my life when i was about seven. ten years ago. i waited as i turned eleven and waited for my hogwarts letter from dumbledore to come in the mail. it never came. when i grew up, i didn't really broadcast my love for harry potter. as if kids my age ever were connected to it as i was. i don't think it was until high school where i was able to find other kids with a love for harry potter. and after that it just grew bigger and bigger. the franchise exploded and all of a sudden, every other student in school was a harry potter geek.
i haven't read the books one through six in a few years. i'm going to say two years because i remember specifically, i read the books right after another.
and it wasn't until last year in which i bought my first harry potter book. it will be my first harry potter book and it is the last of the series. harry potter and the deathly hallows was by far my favorite book. maybe because there was so much adventure and fighting and love and friendship in it. at times it was slow, especially during the middle, but at the end, it was all worth it.
i got to read about my favorite three wizards fighting evil.
i remember in 9th grade when deathly hallows came out. it was the final installment of the harry potter series. the main question was whether harry potter was going to be killed off or not. i'll try not to spoil it but in a way he was and a way he wasn't.
i saw the london premiere this morning on youtube, along with many, many other harry potter nerds that i knew and that i didn't. my blog dashboard was exploding with posts about the live premiere. not to mention, my posts were exploding too.
it's just hard to imagine that in one week my childhood will be i guess "over". i grew up with harry potter. in this last segment of the movie, harry will be gone with his hogwart years. he's going to be an adult in a sense. seventeen is wizarding legal age. as i'm seventeen, i feel attached.
i might not have gotten my hogwarts letter when i was eleven.
but i feel like i've been there my entire life.
thank you harry potter, for growing up with me.
it's not goodbye. it's never goodbye.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
day 22: crackle polish
i thought this morning was going to be the worst day for me. but j made it better. we had an adventure at walmart and even though it was short, it was still fun. just hanging out with him makes my day. i don't know how he does it but he makes everything so care free!
and then after, i had a small pool party at my house. but the sun went away and then things didn't get so fun anymore.
and we went to panera.
and ate
and then j got me crackle polish.
i'm iffy about this right now
but i'll have to see in the morning.
and then we just spent time together.
i played a little wiffle ball with the boys today. it was pretty fun.
and now i'm oovooing into the wee hours of the day.
and then after, i had a small pool party at my house. but the sun went away and then things didn't get so fun anymore.
and we went to panera.
and ate
and then j got me crackle polish.
i'm iffy about this right now
but i'll have to see in the morning.
and then we just spent time together.
i played a little wiffle ball with the boys today. it was pretty fun.
and now i'm oovooing into the wee hours of the day.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
day 21
today has been another casual day.
i find myself writing less and less as the days go on. i went to work today.
i got called out on at work (with fun) cause i didn't fold my shirt neat enough.
oh wells.
i drove for the first time today. s was sitting in shot gun with b and j in the back. i'm not used to driving. nor pushing down on the pedal. i keep jerking the car back and forth. lol and i kept screaming.
but it was good.
and h called me and told me some stories.
i just hope tomorrow is better.
i hate anon trolls.
especially ones that know your ex
and purposely troll you and get caught.
i will fuck him up.
i find myself writing less and less as the days go on. i went to work today.
i got called out on at work (with fun) cause i didn't fold my shirt neat enough.
oh wells.
i drove for the first time today. s was sitting in shot gun with b and j in the back. i'm not used to driving. nor pushing down on the pedal. i keep jerking the car back and forth. lol and i kept screaming.
but it was good.
and h called me and told me some stories.
i just hope tomorrow is better.
i hate anon trolls.
especially ones that know your ex
and purposely troll you and get caught.
i will fuck him up.
Monday, July 4, 2011
day 20: july 4th
this was one of the greatest july 4ths i've ever had in my entire life. usually i go and well.. stay home.
i had my first beer.
i know.
just one.
it didn't do anything but
nonetheless, it was something.
and i watched fireworks at j's aunts house.
which were fantastic.
they were right in our faces. but a piece of ash fell in my eye.
and it took me a while to get it out.
it hurt.
then i went around town with j.
and came home now.
one of the best nights of my life.
i haven't laughed so hard in ages.
and i peed in my backyard. (i know classy.. but i had to go without going inside)
i'm glad i have someone there to make me laugh until i can't breathe.
thank you j.
i needed it so much.
now onto the rest of my life.
(:
i had my first beer.
i know.
just one.
it didn't do anything but
nonetheless, it was something.
and i watched fireworks at j's aunts house.
which were fantastic.
they were right in our faces. but a piece of ash fell in my eye.
and it took me a while to get it out.
it hurt.
then i went around town with j.
and came home now.
one of the best nights of my life.
i haven't laughed so hard in ages.
and i peed in my backyard. (i know classy.. but i had to go without going inside)
i'm glad i have someone there to make me laugh until i can't breathe.
thank you j.
i needed it so much.
now onto the rest of my life.
(:
Sunday, July 3, 2011
day 19
today was all about food. from this morning to the night time, all i did was eat and eat and eat. it was like as if i didn't eat before.
i went to uncle bacala's for the first time today for g's graduation slash birthday party. the meals were amazing. i had my first five course italian meal. the whole brunch thing took four hours. everything was delicious. there were waffles and pancakes first. and there was penne a la vodka (which i had for the first time too and it was delicious) and caesar salad, and other things that i forgot cause it was just so much.
and then later that same night i went out to simply fondue with my friends. it was the first time i had fondue. it was really weird but it was good. it was something new and quality time with my friends.
and played billiards. well i didn't. i just tagged people with the white chalk.
and then we saw some fireworks.
i'm tired.
i need le sleep. goodnight.
i went to uncle bacala's for the first time today for g's graduation slash birthday party. the meals were amazing. i had my first five course italian meal. the whole brunch thing took four hours. everything was delicious. there were waffles and pancakes first. and there was penne a la vodka (which i had for the first time too and it was delicious) and caesar salad, and other things that i forgot cause it was just so much.
and then later that same night i went out to simply fondue with my friends. it was the first time i had fondue. it was really weird but it was good. it was something new and quality time with my friends.
and played billiards. well i didn't. i just tagged people with the white chalk.
and then we saw some fireworks.
i'm tired.
i need le sleep. goodnight.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
day 18
i'm sick and tired.
of everything.
and i feel so goddamn lonely.
and i want to scream
but i can't
cause nothing will come out.
went to sra pincay's house for breakfast today. i adore her six year old sun.
got deaded by snr pincay.
cause i told him i was going to be a civil engineer.
that makes me nervous now.
what if i dont find a job after college?
then my dad will be right after all..
and then i'll be screwed for life.
and my dreams will never come true.
and i'll be alone.
forever.
living in a box.
and fucking up things.
i'm so fucking scared.
of everything.
and i feel so goddamn lonely.
and i want to scream
but i can't
cause nothing will come out.
went to sra pincay's house for breakfast today. i adore her six year old sun.
got deaded by snr pincay.
cause i told him i was going to be a civil engineer.
that makes me nervous now.
what if i dont find a job after college?
then my dad will be right after all..
and then i'll be screwed for life.
and my dreams will never come true.
and i'll be alone.
forever.
living in a box.
and fucking up things.
i'm so fucking scared.
Friday, July 1, 2011
day 17
i just hate people.
i just fucking hate people.
i can't wait to go to college.
anyway. i saw transformers 3 today. the new female lead was alright. i don't really want to ruin it but she was very.. lets say damsel in distress like. and she had different shoes on during the same scene and i caught it. and it was just. no.
it was an okay day.
another day of cranky-ness.
i just keep getting crankier by the day don't i.
too tired to write.
sra's house tomorrow for flhs breakfast.
last one. ever.
i just fucking hate people.
i can't wait to go to college.
anyway. i saw transformers 3 today. the new female lead was alright. i don't really want to ruin it but she was very.. lets say damsel in distress like. and she had different shoes on during the same scene and i caught it. and it was just. no.
it was an okay day.
another day of cranky-ness.
i just keep getting crankier by the day don't i.
too tired to write.
sra's house tomorrow for flhs breakfast.
last one. ever.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
day 16
i guess i woke up on the wrong side of the pillow. i went shopping with my sister and my mom and my godmother in the morning and i was just grumpy. maybe because of my lack of sleep.
but basically.
i got new clothes today.
and i got jamba juice.
and i went to work.
but today wasn't the last day.
and then i went out with s & j and went to s's house to watch some animal planet as we usually do.
too lazy to write as usual.
perhaps i should head off to bed earlier.
but basically.
i got new clothes today.
and i got jamba juice.
and i went to work.
but today wasn't the last day.
and then i went out with s & j and went to s's house to watch some animal planet as we usually do.
too lazy to write as usual.
perhaps i should head off to bed earlier.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
day 15
and here i thought for the whole day that my dad was going to pummel me because he caught me sneaking back home last night, today was actually a very decent day.
i woke up and spent a lot of time with my family and i got a lot of things done. i went out to eat and got my photos from graduation and prom and the last day of school.
i accomplished a lot for such a short amount of time.
but however, i feel like as if i haven't seen my friends in the longest times. even though i saw them a few days ago, i'm so used to seeing them at school everyday and having plans every weekend. but now, especially summer is here, the only time i get to see them is on oovoo. which is what i'm doing right now but it's not the same.
i know i said i wasn't going to be like this but, i think i'm slowly turning into the person i don't want to be. i'm slowly giving in, and i know i shouldn't. why i'm turning into this? i don't know. i guess it's after holding myself in for so long, i'm partially exploding.
i don't know.
i woke up and spent a lot of time with my family and i got a lot of things done. i went out to eat and got my photos from graduation and prom and the last day of school.
i accomplished a lot for such a short amount of time.
but however, i feel like as if i haven't seen my friends in the longest times. even though i saw them a few days ago, i'm so used to seeing them at school everyday and having plans every weekend. but now, especially summer is here, the only time i get to see them is on oovoo. which is what i'm doing right now but it's not the same.
i know i said i wasn't going to be like this but, i think i'm slowly turning into the person i don't want to be. i'm slowly giving in, and i know i shouldn't. why i'm turning into this? i don't know. i guess it's after holding myself in for so long, i'm partially exploding.
i don't know.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
day 14: rain
i type to you with dripping wet hair and cold skin. and possibly the most thrilling and frightening night. it was an attempt again to sneak out but this time i had a huge caution written in my mind. both my parents were home for once and it was quiet.
nonetheless, the night started humidly and hot. and then lightening and thunder began. usually i'm not scared when sneaking out but knowing that my dad was home made it ten times more frightening for me.
nonetheless i made it home in one piece. and was deaded by my dad from whom i knew from the beginning would catch me especially since he's sleeping in the living room right now.
so nonetheless, it was another fail night. this time, thanks to the rain and thunder. i should have listened. but then, what's life without a little twist and curve?
and ps: no. you do not want to go out in the lightning and thunder.
i don't think your typical romantic kissing in the pouring rain is sexy either.
cause it's fucking wet let me tell you that.
that is all.
-r
nonetheless, the night started humidly and hot. and then lightening and thunder began. usually i'm not scared when sneaking out but knowing that my dad was home made it ten times more frightening for me.
nonetheless i made it home in one piece. and was deaded by my dad from whom i knew from the beginning would catch me especially since he's sleeping in the living room right now.
so nonetheless, it was another fail night. this time, thanks to the rain and thunder. i should have listened. but then, what's life without a little twist and curve?
and ps: no. you do not want to go out in the lightning and thunder.
i don't think your typical romantic kissing in the pouring rain is sexy either.
cause it's fucking wet let me tell you that.
that is all.
-r
Monday, June 27, 2011
day 13
i've never had a more crazy day in my life..
the beginning of the day was excellent, and it wasn't until these last few hours that things just turned around 180 degrees.
i've had the most lovely time just walking around town today. and playing some card games and talking and fooling around and playing basketball and on playgrounds. it was a day in which a lot of stress was relieved and there was no worry whatsoever.
went to dairy barn and finally visited m after a year of him telling me to visit him. but apparently it doesn't count cause i didn't go in.
and i had the most lovely dinner date with j. it was nice. we just sat and talked. he's always one of the best people i can sit down and talk to now.
and then my whole night flipped. let's just say i ran around town for an hour all on foot.
i don't remember if i wrote about this or not; but having the dinner date made me realize something. well i realized this before but this might be the first time i'm putting this into words.
i'll always remember a story my dad told me at the dinner table.
he told me that his grandpa (so my great grandpa) was almost killed during the japanese/chinese war. it was told that he was walking down the street and the japanese were chasing him. however, my great grandpa lo, you see, the lo's are a tall bunch. apparently he jumped in through a window and escaped. so you see, the moral of this story is, is if the lo tall gene wasn't there, i wouldn't be here typing this to you right now. then three generations of lo's wouldn't be here on this earth right now.
and that got me thinking.
about all the other lost souls that have been lost in the past. about family trees that have been cut off at the branches. who knows, if their lives were continued on, their little relatives could be here sitting next to us right now in life. or imagine if the people in our lives were not to be existed at all? and they were just cut off at the root.
what if the people in your life weren't there? and another group of people were?
enjoy the people you have in your life.
you never know when they might disappear.
the beginning of the day was excellent, and it wasn't until these last few hours that things just turned around 180 degrees.
i've had the most lovely time just walking around town today. and playing some card games and talking and fooling around and playing basketball and on playgrounds. it was a day in which a lot of stress was relieved and there was no worry whatsoever.
went to dairy barn and finally visited m after a year of him telling me to visit him. but apparently it doesn't count cause i didn't go in.
and i had the most lovely dinner date with j. it was nice. we just sat and talked. he's always one of the best people i can sit down and talk to now.
and then my whole night flipped. let's just say i ran around town for an hour all on foot.
i don't remember if i wrote about this or not; but having the dinner date made me realize something. well i realized this before but this might be the first time i'm putting this into words.
i'll always remember a story my dad told me at the dinner table.
he told me that his grandpa (so my great grandpa) was almost killed during the japanese/chinese war. it was told that he was walking down the street and the japanese were chasing him. however, my great grandpa lo, you see, the lo's are a tall bunch. apparently he jumped in through a window and escaped. so you see, the moral of this story is, is if the lo tall gene wasn't there, i wouldn't be here typing this to you right now. then three generations of lo's wouldn't be here on this earth right now.
and that got me thinking.
about all the other lost souls that have been lost in the past. about family trees that have been cut off at the branches. who knows, if their lives were continued on, their little relatives could be here sitting next to us right now in life. or imagine if the people in our lives were not to be existed at all? and they were just cut off at the root.
what if the people in your life weren't there? and another group of people were?
enjoy the people you have in your life.
you never know when they might disappear.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
day 12: graduation
and today i write to you as an official high school graduate. six years of high school work and drama leads all down to this one day.
graduation itself wasn't that bad. there were a couple 'inspirational' speeches and it made me think. that is the last time the whole class of 2011 will be in one room together.
graduation itself wasn't that bad. however, as expected of myself, as i walked half way across the stage, my cap and my diploma fell onto the floor at the same time. it was a smidge embarrassing but at that point i didn't even care. that is me. i'm a klutz. i drop things. i fall. i'm just surprised i didn't fall on my face. this is me.
after wards, my friends and i took a lot of pictures. they were needed for the memories.
afterwards, i went out with my family for a late lunch/early dinner. i ate a lot.
and speaking of 'inspirational' speeches, i'll leave you with this.
high school allows you to do things you've never imagined. it is in high school where you explore the person you are and express the potential you can hold. no matter how far, nor how long time brings us, high school will always hold us together. no matter how much we yearn to spread our wings and fly away from this town, our hearts always belong at home, in nhp. it is here where we slowly turned from little kids to young adults to nearly adults in general. here we are. after years and years of seeing the same faces growing up, it is time for all of us to spread our wings and fly. even though may still want to linger about the nest, you can never look back with regrets. you can only push yourself forward and soar into the sky.
graduation itself wasn't that bad. there were a couple 'inspirational' speeches and it made me think. that is the last time the whole class of 2011 will be in one room together.
graduation itself wasn't that bad. however, as expected of myself, as i walked half way across the stage, my cap and my diploma fell onto the floor at the same time. it was a smidge embarrassing but at that point i didn't even care. that is me. i'm a klutz. i drop things. i fall. i'm just surprised i didn't fall on my face. this is me.
after wards, my friends and i took a lot of pictures. they were needed for the memories.
afterwards, i went out with my family for a late lunch/early dinner. i ate a lot.
and speaking of 'inspirational' speeches, i'll leave you with this.
high school allows you to do things you've never imagined. it is in high school where you explore the person you are and express the potential you can hold. no matter how far, nor how long time brings us, high school will always hold us together. no matter how much we yearn to spread our wings and fly away from this town, our hearts always belong at home, in nhp. it is here where we slowly turned from little kids to young adults to nearly adults in general. here we are. after years and years of seeing the same faces growing up, it is time for all of us to spread our wings and fly. even though may still want to linger about the nest, you can never look back with regrets. you can only push yourself forward and soar into the sky.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
day 11: day before graduation
i'm sick and tired of my mom telling me that i can't wear certain kinds of shoes. i have these 4 inch heels for prom. which i mean is tall, but i really like them a lot. my mom doesn't want me to wear them because i'm already so tall. and i don't usually like flaunting my tallness, but i really like these heels. i don't really care what people are going to say. i love the shoes. that's all that matters isn't it?
speaking of which, i'm vice president of the foreign language honor society. and i don't even get to get a flhs pin. lol. hopeless. in order to get a pin on graduation, you needed to take a foreign language class, which i didn't this year. but oh wells.
i'm excited for tomorrow. six years of high school and it comes down to this one day. i've done so many things during my high school career that i'm extremely proud of. some more meaningful to me than to other people but meaningful to me nonetheless. i'm glad i got to grow up in this town, at this school. i'm glad i got to grow up the right way and not be screwed up. even though to my friends, this town is just a place to get away from, i'll always remember the times i've had. i'll always remember the house where i slapped a boy in the face because he took my bike. i'll remember the tree that i used to play at during the elementary school days with my friends. i'll remember sitting on a certain pavement alone just thinking to myself in the shade. i'll remember where i had my first kiss. i'll remember the town. the people.
the day of graduation doesn't also mean the end of high school.
it represents adulthood too. moving on, away from the kids that i always knew since i could remember. of course i don't talk to many of them now. we have cliques and groups. things changed since 6th grade graduation. the next time graduation is relived again will be in college.
and even then things won't be the same.
speaking of which, i'm vice president of the foreign language honor society. and i don't even get to get a flhs pin. lol. hopeless. in order to get a pin on graduation, you needed to take a foreign language class, which i didn't this year. but oh wells.
i'm excited for tomorrow. six years of high school and it comes down to this one day. i've done so many things during my high school career that i'm extremely proud of. some more meaningful to me than to other people but meaningful to me nonetheless. i'm glad i got to grow up in this town, at this school. i'm glad i got to grow up the right way and not be screwed up. even though to my friends, this town is just a place to get away from, i'll always remember the times i've had. i'll always remember the house where i slapped a boy in the face because he took my bike. i'll remember the tree that i used to play at during the elementary school days with my friends. i'll remember sitting on a certain pavement alone just thinking to myself in the shade. i'll remember where i had my first kiss. i'll remember the town. the people.
the day of graduation doesn't also mean the end of high school.
it represents adulthood too. moving on, away from the kids that i always knew since i could remember. of course i don't talk to many of them now. we have cliques and groups. things changed since 6th grade graduation. the next time graduation is relived again will be in college.
and even then things won't be the same.
Friday, June 24, 2011
day 10: prom
i sit and type to you here in one piece. i have survived the aftermath of prom, and after prom itself.
i don't know what to say besides that my whole day through night was just topsy turvy. prom itself was lovely. there was a photobooth and there was a lot of candy and just sitting at the table looking at my friends all dressed up. whether they were dolled up or had a suit on, the whole moment was just lovely.
and then after prom came. and there was a lot of babysitting going on. a lot. which i knew was going to end up happening. and i was overwhelmed with it. i couldn't take it.
but at least all of us came home in one piece. and things are all good.
prom maybe wasn't 100% the most happiest night of my life.
but you say it's quite memorable.
i just wish i could just get some memories out of my head.
i don't know what to say besides that my whole day through night was just topsy turvy. prom itself was lovely. there was a photobooth and there was a lot of candy and just sitting at the table looking at my friends all dressed up. whether they were dolled up or had a suit on, the whole moment was just lovely.
and then after prom came. and there was a lot of babysitting going on. a lot. which i knew was going to end up happening. and i was overwhelmed with it. i couldn't take it.
but at least all of us came home in one piece. and things are all good.
prom maybe wasn't 100% the most happiest night of my life.
but you say it's quite memorable.
i just wish i could just get some memories out of my head.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
day 9: preprom
it's the middle of the day. it's two minutes after twelve to be precise. i am writing to you from my kitchen table. prom is in precisely 5 hours. and i still haven't showered. or take any preparation in prom whatsoever.
however, i did attend my gradation rehearsal this morning. and i got my cap and gown. it's coming way too fast.
well i guess i'm writing now because well. tonight i surely won't have time. oh boy, i bet the post is going to be amazing and long tomorrow. if i have the energy to write it at least.
i love how at night, before i go to sleep, i always think of the best things to write in my blog. and then when i get to my computer i don't remember anything whatsoever.
i guess i'll write about people today. a /rant if you will.
nothing really to rant about.
OMG ACTUALLY I HAVE SOMETHING.
so during the school year, for the whole month of june, i cut gym class and well, didn't go. so today when i was going to graduation rehearsal, i saw my gym teacher sitting with a security guard that i know. i said hello but my teacher didn't say anything back. he was just giving me a blank stare. i guess he had nothing to say to me. i can't blame him though. today was my first time in the gym after like what? 3 weeks? of not being in gym. and not to mention, he sp0tted me in the cafeteria one day when i was cutting his class. but not like that was going to do anything.. oh wells. i'm glad i cut. so yeah, i got a 50 in class. i threw away one marking period of gym after having attending every freaking gym class and any other class in my high school career. sure it was a dick move for me to do. but i really hated that class. if it wasn't gym, it would have been another class.
and well, gym is just a waste of my time.
i guess i should go now, get ready or something.
till tomorrow,
xx me
however, i did attend my gradation rehearsal this morning. and i got my cap and gown. it's coming way too fast.
well i guess i'm writing now because well. tonight i surely won't have time. oh boy, i bet the post is going to be amazing and long tomorrow. if i have the energy to write it at least.
i love how at night, before i go to sleep, i always think of the best things to write in my blog. and then when i get to my computer i don't remember anything whatsoever.
i guess i'll write about people today. a /rant if you will.
nothing really to rant about.
OMG ACTUALLY I HAVE SOMETHING.
so during the school year, for the whole month of june, i cut gym class and well, didn't go. so today when i was going to graduation rehearsal, i saw my gym teacher sitting with a security guard that i know. i said hello but my teacher didn't say anything back. he was just giving me a blank stare. i guess he had nothing to say to me. i can't blame him though. today was my first time in the gym after like what? 3 weeks? of not being in gym. and not to mention, he sp0tted me in the cafeteria one day when i was cutting his class. but not like that was going to do anything.. oh wells. i'm glad i cut. so yeah, i got a 50 in class. i threw away one marking period of gym after having attending every freaking gym class and any other class in my high school career. sure it was a dick move for me to do. but i really hated that class. if it wasn't gym, it would have been another class.
and well, gym is just a waste of my time.
i guess i should go now, get ready or something.
till tomorrow,
xx me
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
day 8
tomorrow is the day. tomorrow is the day that i've been looking forward to all this time. i have my dress. i have my shoes. i have my clutch. i have a hairstyle in mind. and i have what kind of make up in mind.
tomorrow either is going to be an absolute bore or one of the greatest times of my life. i'm hoping for it to be one of the greatest times of my life. let's just hope the rain doesn't ruin it.
that's it.
nothing else to say.
not really in the mood.
tomorrow either is going to be an absolute bore or one of the greatest times of my life. i'm hoping for it to be one of the greatest times of my life. let's just hope the rain doesn't ruin it.
that's it.
nothing else to say.
not really in the mood.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
day 7: nothing
i did three major things today. actually two.
i decided not to go to the spanish club officer breakfast today. i got my sleep back on.
r came over after the breakfast, and hung out with me for a smidge. we had our girl talk (:
then i went to work. and made like. my 2 dollars worth. -_-
time for a new job. a little more than 1 week and it'll be done i think.
nothing new today.
is it weird that for the first time in my life, i am tired of blogging?
i decided not to go to the spanish club officer breakfast today. i got my sleep back on.
r came over after the breakfast, and hung out with me for a smidge. we had our girl talk (:
then i went to work. and made like. my 2 dollars worth. -_-
time for a new job. a little more than 1 week and it'll be done i think.
nothing new today.
is it weird that for the first time in my life, i am tired of blogging?
Monday, June 20, 2011
day 6: trap
today will probably be the last time i will see my architecture teachers and/or architecture classmates ever again. i woke up the earliest i have all week at a bright an early time of eight o'clock for an early morning review for my architecture regents. it was my last regents and it was the only regents i've ever worked three years just to complete.
the regents was easy. the review went over exactly what was on the test. afterwards, my architecture friends and i went to the park and hung out. and got some food to eat. it was a short hanging out session. but it was better than nothing.
forever our class picture. class of 2011.
ski and i
i got home and played a little mario kart with my siblings.
then eventually went out with my trap br0s. it was probably one of the first times i ditched the responsibility of planning a hang out. but i'm proud of them. we went to the park and played basketball for a little bit. and we were sp0tted but that's okay :) from j and her date. and then we went to eat gelato. i had it for the first time today. it was like ice cream but a lot creamier. it was yummy. and then we eventually went to another park to play ping pong. which was amazingly fun. i missed moments like this. just fooling around. and having fun. and not having things planned out days in advanced.
the regents was easy. the review went over exactly what was on the test. afterwards, my architecture friends and i went to the park and hung out. and got some food to eat. it was a short hanging out session. but it was better than nothing.
forever our class picture. class of 2011.
ski and i
i got home and played a little mario kart with my siblings.
then eventually went out with my trap br0s. it was probably one of the first times i ditched the responsibility of planning a hang out. but i'm proud of them. we went to the park and played basketball for a little bit. and we were sp0tted but that's okay :) from j and her date. and then we went to eat gelato. i had it for the first time today. it was like ice cream but a lot creamier. it was yummy. and then we eventually went to another park to play ping pong. which was amazingly fun. i missed moments like this. just fooling around. and having fun. and not having things planned out days in advanced.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
day 5: father's day
my god, i'm sitting here and i can't even think of a god way to start the blog today. today is father's day. my neighbors came over for a bbq and two of my girlfriends came over.
i watched sex and the city today. until megavideo shut me down.
man. this morning i had a really good topic to write in my blog but i forgot what.
but i can tell you that right now i'm thinking about how things are going so fast. and i thought the school year was going by fast. starting tomorrow, my social life will be close to none until after prom. there are so many preparations to do before prom. nonetheless how i'm wasting so much money and i have so many things to do. my money is depleting so fast especially since i spent like. 4/5 of the money i got from the bank on friday just for the palette from urban decay. but it was a product well spent. i feel like putting makeup on everyday even though i shouldn't. i guess i'm just really excited about the product.
last night i had a realization about the general topic of 'what could have been'. there are so many people this year that have became a big part of my life. and it was something that triggered it. i don't know exactly what for each person but something did. and it made me think, what if my bestfriendship with s didn't break apart? would i be where i am right now? would i be as badass? would i be willing to do things on my own without asking for advice constantly?
i think the answer to all those questions are no. i've learned a lot about myself and i guess i've evolved onto a whole new form of independency. during this short allotted, i taught myself to deal with things myself and only ask for help in a time of need. i've learned a lot about myself without having someone constantly hovering over my shoulder constantly worried. even though we're just nearly friends now, i know s still worries for me. i've heard things that he has said and he even has that worried face on whenever i told him the watered down version of my badassery at school when he asked about my weekend. i guess i do that purposely too; to show him that i'm a whole new person and that i don't need him in my life. i didn't ever need him in my life. i was perfectly fine on my own to make my own decisions, to explore teenage life by myself.
but most of all, i think the most important thing that i've learned this year is:
that boys come and gone, but you always have your girlfriends.
and that is so fucking relevant
i watched sex and the city today. until megavideo shut me down.
man. this morning i had a really good topic to write in my blog but i forgot what.
but i can tell you that right now i'm thinking about how things are going so fast. and i thought the school year was going by fast. starting tomorrow, my social life will be close to none until after prom. there are so many preparations to do before prom. nonetheless how i'm wasting so much money and i have so many things to do. my money is depleting so fast especially since i spent like. 4/5 of the money i got from the bank on friday just for the palette from urban decay. but it was a product well spent. i feel like putting makeup on everyday even though i shouldn't. i guess i'm just really excited about the product.
last night i had a realization about the general topic of 'what could have been'. there are so many people this year that have became a big part of my life. and it was something that triggered it. i don't know exactly what for each person but something did. and it made me think, what if my bestfriendship with s didn't break apart? would i be where i am right now? would i be as badass? would i be willing to do things on my own without asking for advice constantly?
i think the answer to all those questions are no. i've learned a lot about myself and i guess i've evolved onto a whole new form of independency. during this short allotted, i taught myself to deal with things myself and only ask for help in a time of need. i've learned a lot about myself without having someone constantly hovering over my shoulder constantly worried. even though we're just nearly friends now, i know s still worries for me. i've heard things that he has said and he even has that worried face on whenever i told him the watered down version of my badassery at school when he asked about my weekend. i guess i do that purposely too; to show him that i'm a whole new person and that i don't need him in my life. i didn't ever need him in my life. i was perfectly fine on my own to make my own decisions, to explore teenage life by myself.
but most of all, i think the most important thing that i've learned this year is:
that boys come and gone, but you always have your girlfriends.
and that is so fucking relevant
Saturday, June 18, 2011
day 4: fairs
i came home today and looked at the clock. the clock read 12:58 am. here i am, coming home later and later. and i'm not even coming home from anything bad too. i had another night but this time s was there. but eventually it was just j and i sitting and talking as usual.
i spent the day with my friends going to two different fairs/carnivals. and we arrived just on time to see the fireworks on the second one.
i had a lot of fun today. today was full of adventure. i'm not used to blogging every day about my life anymore. i was used to it last year but this year not so much. i should take more pictures. a picture is worth a thousand words right?
well i'm going to head off.
it's only oh. one something in the morning.
so i guess.. goodmorning!
i spent the day with my friends going to two different fairs/carnivals. and we arrived just on time to see the fireworks on the second one.
i had a lot of fun today. today was full of adventure. i'm not used to blogging every day about my life anymore. i was used to it last year but this year not so much. i should take more pictures. a picture is worth a thousand words right?
well i'm going to head off.
it's only oh. one something in the morning.
so i guess.. goodmorning!
Friday, June 17, 2011
day 3: feminine palette
I GOT THIS PALETTE TODAY! after wanting this baby for so long, i finally found it in the store when on the website it specifically says online only. nonetheless, i was excited. this was my first sephora purchase made for me. and i'm really excited to use all of these colors!
going to use this palette for proooooom!
excited!
and i got my sheets for college.
lol.
edit: 12:34 am
well technically this is part of day 4 but i mean i haven't gone to sleep yet so it's still the same day.
i snuck out today. again. well this time it's more legit. with my family sleeping at night and everything.
i hung out with j. we drove around and talked. he got me a stuffed animal turtle from the fair. it was great catching up time.
i'm not tired yet. perhaps i'll go blog or something.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
day 2
the majority of my day consisted of running errands before work. i decided to go to check out some drug stores to buy an eyelash curler. i was meaning to buy one for a while. i finally found a decent priced one at rite aid. as i was getting ready to pay, the cashier asked if i had a rite aid card and i didn't. but the nice man behind me (with two cases of bud light i may add) nicely offered me his card.) and i saved fourteen cents. even though it was only fourteen cents, it made me smile. it was such a nice gesture :'). nice people like that give me hope.
then afterwards i went to the bank and waiting for 15 minutes because there was only one teller open. then i got money and went to panera to pick up 2 chicken chipotles for my sister and i.
i didn't get any rewards on my card.
then i walked back home. ate. played mario party with t and then we both went to work. work went a smidge faster than usual today. it gets slow until i see my two favorite students who coincidentally are in the same grade and have my old kindergarten/second grade teacher. then work goes fast.
seeing them makes me realize how fast times goes. i share something with these kids that i don't get to share with my current friends now. i've lived in this town all my life and i've seen people come and disappear. i grew up here. and i can't really talk about my old childhood past with my friends now because my friends haven't grown up with me until jr high school. those little students helped me remember how fast time has gone. and how life was like then.
i remembered (with the teacher they had) we had spelling word homework and we had to write sentences with the words in them. and i would be the over achiever and write a whole story. and i got extra credit.
but after 3rd grade things started going downhill. and my over achievements started to go failure status and then things went back up again.
i'll always remember those moments.
then afterwards i went to the bank and waiting for 15 minutes because there was only one teller open. then i got money and went to panera to pick up 2 chicken chipotles for my sister and i.
i didn't get any rewards on my card.
then i walked back home. ate. played mario party with t and then we both went to work. work went a smidge faster than usual today. it gets slow until i see my two favorite students who coincidentally are in the same grade and have my old kindergarten/second grade teacher. then work goes fast.
seeing them makes me realize how fast times goes. i share something with these kids that i don't get to share with my current friends now. i've lived in this town all my life and i've seen people come and disappear. i grew up here. and i can't really talk about my old childhood past with my friends now because my friends haven't grown up with me until jr high school. those little students helped me remember how fast time has gone. and how life was like then.
i remembered (with the teacher they had) we had spelling word homework and we had to write sentences with the words in them. and i would be the over achiever and write a whole story. and i got extra credit.
but after 3rd grade things started going downhill. and my over achievements started to go failure status and then things went back up again.
i'll always remember those moments.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
day 1
today was the first day of summer. it is also the first day that i am single for more or less than two months.
but let me start from the beginning.
i didn't do much today. i spent most of my day home. i cleaned my room. and r & b came over and we had a small talk session. there wasn't much to talk about because nothing new really came up but it was more or less the same news. then we went to panera and after that s & h came along.
it was a little bit awkward. i don't know why i'm writing this to the public because probably both of them will read this but i'm just typing it as a i see it.
and none the less, i think i have half of my friends who are going to give me a slight cold shoulder because of the break up.
i don't know. why am i even writing this.
seriously rosa. what are you doing.
whatever. this is what goes in my mind.
besides that, nothing really went on.
twas an alright first day of summer. i've had better.
oh well.
here's to a better day tomorrow
but let me start from the beginning.
i didn't do much today. i spent most of my day home. i cleaned my room. and r & b came over and we had a small talk session. there wasn't much to talk about because nothing new really came up but it was more or less the same news. then we went to panera and after that s & h came along.
it was a little bit awkward. i don't know why i'm writing this to the public because probably both of them will read this but i'm just typing it as a i see it.
and none the less, i think i have half of my friends who are going to give me a slight cold shoulder because of the break up.
i don't know. why am i even writing this.
seriously rosa. what are you doing.
whatever. this is what goes in my mind.
besides that, nothing really went on.
twas an alright first day of summer. i've had better.
oh well.
here's to a better day tomorrow
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