day 57

today started off as a simple day with a simple plan in mind. i was going to go out with j for sushi as dinner but things didn't go as planned.
so i ended up seeing my friends but not j. we played mario kart on the game cube and we ate chips and laughed and talked. it was nice. i missed seeing them. it wasn't the same.
and then i went home for dinner and texted j for italian ices. i had the same flavor but he had marshmallow.
and then we hung out and took a walk and gazed under the stars in the park.
we had a lovely night.
and he helped me figure out something.
i guess this has been in my mind for the longest time. i guess i've been worried about not keeping in contact with my friends. i guess i was worried about not talking to them ever again; especially since all of us are going to different places. but i guess what he made me realize is that this is life and that this is bound to happen. as hard as i'd wish to keep in contact, there is no point in trying so hard when the other people aren't trying right back.
why put in all the effort when they're not working just as hard.
well i'm oovooing with s and h.
and it's 2:31 am. i'm sort of tired, sort of not.
bye!