day 35: respect

so while i wait for my today's episode of pretty little liars to completely finish downloading, here i am with my fingers ready to type about what i do today.
basically all i did today:
kumon. which was cute. i have some students who are growing on me and it's nice. but i think by the time i leave near august, i'm going to miss them terribly.
every night before i go to sleep, i always think of the best things to write of. i always think of topics of things that i used to write about from my previous blogs.
on the way to work today, i was thinking about the way things changed from january to now. the people in my life totally changed. instead of having one guy best friend, i now have about... four. which has it's pros and cons in it's ways. i mean. that's how i work. besides my super best girl friend, i usually barely tell any secrets to anyone else. i mean i rant about my life, but those are rarely any secrets. if any thing, i tell bits and pieces to everyone. i guess sometimes i treat my friends like horcruxes. which is sad because i shouldn't. but i've had way too many people come and go in my life and i shouldn't risk it.
recently, i've also had a self identification evaluation if you will. i was thinking about things that make me different from other people. girls in general but other people. i've been working myself up on finding ways on how to love myself cause frankly, i don't think my self esteem is up to a healthy level. i thought about the way i act. i guess in a way i am a lady. i respect myself. i respect my body. i respect others. i listen and talk. and i am gentle at times. but along those lines, i also am a very... how do i say this. i am fierce in a way. i will stand up for what i believe in. i am determined.
unlike other girls. who fucking throw their bodies onto guys and *gag* you get the picture.
basically, i'm not a slut.
and i'm fucking proud of it.
and in that way, i guess i can say i have class.
no, i know i can say that i have class.
and that i have respect for myself.